PureInsight | July 14, 2008
[PureInsight.org] During these
years, either when I was the coordinator of an assistance center during
the period of personal cultivation, or when I was a coordinator for the
Falun Dafa Association during the Fa-rectification period, I found that
there was one attachment that was very easy to ignore. This attachment
has an extremely destructive influence on Dafa projects and was usually
ignored by many practitioners. It is the attachment of validating
ourselves.
What is validating ourselves? My understanding is that oftentimes what
we do at surface level is validating Dafa, and what we say is also
validating Dafa, but from the bottom of our hearts, our actual purpose
contains selfishness. It is trying to get something and validate
ourselves.
Why isn’t it easy to spot this attachment? First, this attachment is
hidden very deeply. It is not easily discovered by ourselves or by
others. Secondly, on the surface level, there is almost no difference
between validating Dafa and doing Dafa work for the sake of validating
ourselves. Other people might also think that you are validating Dafa.
Every practitioner must eliminate this attachment because Master has
told us that no human attachment can be brought to heaven. But what I
want to say is that this attachment has created big disturbances and
damage in our coordination. However, we did not realize it. Personally,
I had some experience with this issue and I almost made a big mistake
because of it.
Around two years ago, I had a problem in my cultivation. I always used
Dafa to look at other practitioners or talk about who was right or
wrong on the surface. I rarely looked inside or asked myself if I had
any attachments. One time, I disagreed with what our local coordinator
did, and I felt that my ability was not fully utilized. Therefore, I
talked to the previous coordinators and the veteran practitioners, and
I told them about the problem with the current coordinator. In
addition, I also asked them to restore the original assistance center.
I said that the main task of these new coordinators during
Fa-rectification is to prepare truth-clarification materials. I
suggested that the old coordinators should still handle the overall
coordination tasks. On the surface, it seems that my idea was based on
Fa and that there was no problem there. However, that night a fellow
practitioner who I am very close with had a dream. He told me that he
saw that our area would meet with big chaos. I looked inside and asked
myself if his dream was related to my suggestion to restore the old
assistance center? Therefore, I stopped what I previously wanted to do.
As a veteran practitioner, I must not create chaos and have a bad
effect toward Dafa. While sharing about cultivation with other
practitioners, they pointed out my attachment - validating myself.
I started to really look inside. I started to carefully review my real
motivations. At the bottom of my heart, I thought that I was a veteran
coordinator, had many years of coordination experience, and had the
ability to do that well. Therefore, I wanted to be the overall
coordinator in my area. When I saw the mistakes that the current
coordinator made, I did not point them out in a timely manner with
compassion and try to help the situation. Instead, I spread gossip
about the coordinator’s mistakes. My real purpose was to build up my
personal reputation. This is an evil technique of creating conflict
among people and is part of communist party culture. Following along
with that, there is no way that we can do things based on Fa. That is a
path arranged by the old forces. Therefore, I completely gave up the
thought of being the overall coordinator. Now, when I think about that
incident, I clearly see my attachment - validating myself.
I hope that other practitioners can learn a lesson from this.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2008/6/1/53126.html
