PureInsight | October 21, 2006
[PUreInsight.org] (San Diego Fahui 2006)
Today I want to share with you a specific problem that I met in the
past few years of cultivation and my understanding about it. I hope
that my experience can help other practitioners with similar problems
to improve on this issue.
Since I obtained the Fa three years ago, I started to work on some
Fa-rectification projects, especially media projects, the reason being
that I am young and have more flexible schedules than many other
practitioners. As the Fa-rectification makes it way forward, we are
having more and more projects in San Diego. Because we don't have many
practitioners here, I naturally began to be involved in more and more
projects. As a result I spent more and more time on different projects,
and less and less time on Fa-study and exercises. From dawn to dusk, I
was busy with projects. It seems like time is still not enough even
though I spent all day doing the projects.
Like this, besides school and work, Fa-rectification projects became my
cultivation path. Even though I knew this was not right, I didn't do
anything to change it. I was pleased with being busy on projects. In a
word, I acknowledged that doing projects was my cultivation path.
Actually, by doing this, I acknowledged the arrangements of the old
forces. This obviously is not arranged and wanted by Master. Master
always emphasized Dafa disciples should do three things well. Only
after you do well in three things, can you improve. The first thing is
to study Fa and do well in our personal cultivation. If we don't do
well in our personal cultivation, there is no mighty virtue and effects
in things we do. We can't even save sentient beings. Then it really
means nothing. It's just like an ordinary person doing Dafa work. What
he gets is not mighty virtue and upgrades in xinxing, but blessings in the future. Further, if you don't pay attention to personal cultivation, you can't even do well in projects.
Because I didn't spend enough time for Fa study and the exercises, problems occurred.
At first, I was trapped in doing projects. I have this mentality of
getting things done. When I worked on Dafa projects, I was doing
projects for the sake of doing projects, not to save sentient beings. I
was spun by the projects. I felt great for myself because I did a lot
of things for Dafa. I was so proud of myself that I augmented my
selfishness.
Secondly, because I didn't practice the exercises much, my physical
body (Ben-ti) was not transformed well enough. I was always tired and
drained. I was not efficient in Dafa projects. Sometimes, I was
sleepy and couldn't concentrate. I would do the same thing when I sent
forth righteous thoughts.
Thirdly, because I didn't study Fa much, my understanding of the Fa is not deep. Thus, it prevented me from improving my xinxing. Therefore, I couldn't see things straight and messed up, and when I had xinxing
conflicts with other practitioners, I was upset and felt as if I was
being treated unfairly. Also, I was so attached to getting things done.
With a low xinxing level,
when problems occurred, I would be too engrossed in the problem itself
and wasn't able to look at it from a higher level. Not looking inward,
I couldn't improve my xinxing for a long time.
Due to all these gaps, I was taken advantage by the old force, which
was one of the factors contributing to a severe car accident last year.
The accident brought some negative impact on our local Fa-rectification
projects. I realized my problems and gaps. After the accident, I
intentionally studied the Fa and practiced the exercises more during
the recovery.
Thanks to Master's great benevolence, Dafa, and support from fellow
practitioners, my body recovered fully. I was able to go back to my
projects. But fundamentally, I still didn't pay enough attention to Fa
study and exercises. The projects just kept coming in. I was trapped
again in doing things. Now I suddenly realized I should really spend
more time on Fa study and exercises, improve my xinxing and increase my tolerance. Otherwise, it will be really dangerous for me.
For Fa-rectification disciples, Master combined the personal
cultivation with Fa-rectification for us; so that we can improve
faster. This is different from Dafa disciples who obtained Fa before
1999. Disciples who obtained the Fa after 1999 are required to manage
our time better in order to lay down a good foundation for personal
cultivation, as well as participate in Fa-rectification projects to
clarify the truth and save sentient beings.
What Master cares about in the end is not a successful projects nor
profitable Media, but whether Dafa disciples have cultivated well, how
many sentient beings are saved, and whether disciples meet with the
consummation requirements or not. Doing a project is not the purpose of
cultivation, but rather a way or method for it. Consequently, no matter
how busy you get in a project, you can't neglect your own personal
cultivation. It is especially true for the disciples who obtained the
Fa in the last few years.
Certainly, we shouldn't go to extremes either. Although I neglected my
personal cultivation and spent all the time on projects before, I can't
stop all the current projects just because I need more time for Fa
study and exercises. We still need to manage our time well and try to
balance every aspects of our cultivation.
In addition, the projects that I have mentioned didn't include "the
Nine Commentaries and Quitting the party". I understand "the Nine
commentaries and Quitting the party" is not a simple project, but
rather a Fa-rectification current. All the projects we do incorporate
"the Nine Commentaries and Quitting the party".
This is my personal understanding. Please kindly point out any mistakes. I want to finish my sharing with Master's poem:
Solid Cultivation
Study the Fa and gain the Fa,
Focus on how you study and cultivate,
Let each and every thing
be measured against the Fa.
Only then, with that,
is it actually cultivation.
