PureInsight | October 28, 2007
[PureInsight.org] I have always
felt that I have improved very slowly since I obtained the Fa in 1997
because of my deeply rooted human notions. I liked to hear praise and
not criticism. I fought back immediately when others pointed out my
faults and refused to accept other opinions. I often argued with others
and refused to look inward for what I did wrong. I could only see
others' mistakes. Every time something happened, I realized that I
didn't act like a practitioner and became troubled and hurt. But
somehow I couldn't break this negative cycle. Teacher said,
they do not like to be criticized. No one can criticize them, and when
someone does, it sets them off. When they are right, they don't like
others bringing up things they could improve on; when they are wrong,
they don't want to be criticized. They get upset as soon as others
criticize. The problem is becoming pretty bad."
"I'm not blaming you, but from now on you all must pay attention to
this. You must get to the point where you are able to take criticism,
regardless of who it's from. If there is truth to it, you correct
yourself, and if not, you are mindful of it. If you can stay unruffled
while being criticized or chided, you are improving."("Teaching the Fa
in the City of Los Angeles")
Teacher pointed out my fundamental attachment and woke me up with a
hammer. I knew why I couldn't improve diligently: I was self-centered,
superficial, and had attachments of fear and the mentality of "doing
things."
As soon as I was determined to eliminate these bad elements, something
happened. A few days after the Chinese New Year, local practitioners
decided to clear the deep snow because it was blocking the road. As we
were clearing the snow, practitioners told passersby the truth about
the persecution of Falun Gong practitioners and asked them the quit the
Chinese Communist Party (CCP). It took us seven days to clear the snow.
One day practitioner A help quite a few people quit the CCP. I helped
one. Practitioner A said that the one person I helped didn't really
quit the CCP. My human mentality rose up and I asked A, "Then what is
really quitting the CCP?"
I realized something was wrong with me and this wasn't an accident. It
was geared specifically to exposing my attachments of jealousy and
wanting to accuse others. I might not have explained the importance of
quitting the CCP to that person clearly. I wanted to talk to that
person again next time we met. Several days later, I met that person
and I explained the importance of quitting the CCP in great detail.
That person gladly agreed to quit the CCP. I learned from this incident
that, whatever I encounter, I must look inward first in order to walk
the path Teacher has arranged for me righteously.
Teacher's new articles, "New Year's Greetings" and "Turning the Wheel
towards the Human World," were published as the Fa rectification was
progressing. At the same time, the Nine Commentaries on the Communist
Party triggered a great trend of Chinese people quitting the CCP. I am
a Dafa practitioner during the Fa rectification period. We shoulder
great responsibility to save sentient beings. Teacher gave us endless
glory and divine power. In 2000, when the evil forces were still
furious, I started to distribute truth-clarifying materials. I was
scared and my mind wandered when I gave out materials. However, I found
the materials in my hands were shining. I was enlightened that Teacher
was protecting students right next to them. With Teacher and the Fa, I
must not be scared and do what I must. In the following several years,
I saw truth materials and Zhuan Falun shining with a golden light many
times. This provided me great confidence in the practice and in
validating the Fa.
To enable more people to understand the truth, we utilized various
means, including hanging banners, posting slogans, spray painting words
on open spaces, and writing the truth on money, to spread the Fa to
every corner of town. The Nine Commentaries, truth fliers and pamphlets
were widespread. So as not to leave anyone behind and to clarify the
truth face to face, I persuaded my family to let me go out of town with
another practitioner. We talked to people in every household. With
Teacher's help, sometimes we could get more than 50 people to quit the
CCP in a day.
People who understood the truth knew how to cherish Dafa materials and
stopped tearing off the banners we posted. Some even picked up banners
that had fallen on the ground and hung them back up.
For several days, the town police station sent out officers to tear off
posted Dafa slogans and announced they would arrest and send away
whomever posted again. I sent righteous thoughts to clear all the dark
minions, meddling deities, and communist evil spirits to stop the
persecution and still went out that night to distribute truth
materials. I remember what Teacher said in "Teaching the Fa at the 2004
Chicago Conference:"
the old forces and everything that they've arranged; we don't even
acknowledge their existence. We're fundamentally negating all of their
things, and all of, and only, the things you do while negating and
getting rid of them is mighty-virtue. It's not that you're cultivating
amidst the ordeals they created. Rather, you are to walk your own path
well while not acknowledging them, not even acknowledging the
elimination of their ordeals' manifestations."
I will walk the path Teacher arranged. I won't care what the situation
looks like to human society, my heart will stay still and righteous.
The police's arresting people who post truth materials wasn't a
coincidence but something geared toward my attachment of fear. I must
do what I have to do and get rid of my fear.
As I was leaving, my husband tried to stop me and said, "You are not
allowed to go out today. Didn't you hear they are arresting those who
post and distribute the materials? You are not scared but I am. Would
you listen to me for once?"
I replied kindly and righteously, "Please relax. Nothing will happen to
me." I left as soon as I finished talking. Knowing he couldn't stop me,
he told me he wouldn't let me in when I got home. I didn't mind. That
night, several of us walked through seven small villages distributing
and posting materials and spray painting slogans. The next morning, my
husband acted like nothing happened and went to work as usual. Letting
go of attachments and walking the righteous path aren't just things we
talk about but are for us to physically carry out. When we act
righteously, our families will help us with validating the Fa and,
hence, we are saving our families.
Dafa practitioners' unshakable resolution to validate the Fa can't be
moved by anything in this changing society. We are totally safe as long
as we walk the path Teacher arranged, let go of human notions, and save
sentient beings. When we act and think righteously, we will see "the
shady willow trees, the bright flowers, and another village ahead"
("The Ninth Talk," Zhuan Falun).
Translated from:
http://minghui.org/mh/articles/2007/10/22/165012.html
