PureInsight | April 30, 2006
[PureInsight.org] (Geneva Fahui, 2006) My name is V. I am a Falun Gong practitioner in Italy and learned about Fa at the end of 2004.
Before practicing, I had many health problems that could not be a
resolved. By chance, a friend gave me a leaflet about Falun Dafa. I
downloaded China Falun Gong
from the internet first and read this book and learned the exercises.
Later I joined the Fa-studying group in our city. I realized that my
movements were somewhat inaccurate. However, I felt well while
practicing the exercises and my whole body was hot. On the first two
days of practicing the exercises, I felt a comfortable feeling that I
had not experienced for a long time. I felt my heart full of enormous
happiness. I remembered at that time when I explained Falun Gong to all
my colleagues, they all knew "truthfulness, compassion, and
forbearance" that Falun Gong advocates.
I encountered Dafa while seeking the solution of my health problem,
which idea brought some interference to me for a period of time later.
Not longer after I began to participate in collective practicing and Fa
studying, my health problem appeared again. I felt puzzled, thinking my
situation was caused by the fact that I was not acknowledged as a Falun
Dafa practitioner. On one hand I was unable to get rid of the
expectation of improving my health. On the other hand, I realized that
the idea was an obsession and felt upset. I kept telling myself that I
wanted to be a practitioner and should not have the idea again.
When I wanted to give up this idea wholeheartedly and realized what a
Dafa practitioner in the period of rectifying, I really got rid of this
thought. One day, I understood whole-heartedly that I wanted to rescue
all people. Suddenly I realized the meaning of doing the three things,
and many worries disappeared. I realized that cultivation is to rescue
all people in the period of Fa-rectifying, and I have the
responsibility and only through cultivation can I fulfill my duty.
On the path of cultivation, every step that I took after falling is very important.
There were other Falun Gong practitioners in the city I live in. I
remembered when I participated in the Fa-studying group for the first
time, I have not finished Zhuan Falun yet. I was still reading Essentials for Further Advancement, II.
I could not even understand half of the content of the discussion. I
was like entering into a different space. When I went home, there were
voices of doubt, resistance and complaints all the time in my head.
That evening I decided that I wanted to fully understand and to
cultivate. Thanks to this environment, I began doing the three things
that the master requires at once.
At that time, several practitioners in my city went to Manhattan to
tell the truth, the remaining were all new practitioners. We practiced
the exercises and studied together and did out best to do the things
that a Dafa practitioner should do. It helped me a lot to be together
with everybody, which gave me confidence and courage. We organized
truth-telling activities each weekend and tried our best to perfect the
materials for telling the truth. We encountered some small problems at
the beginning, yet we were firm and worked very hard. I felt Master was
with us. I felt more than once that we were surrounded by mercy. I was
unable to control my tears.
After The Epoch Times published the "Nine Commentaries on the Communist
Party," we decided to go to Prado in mid-Italy where the most
Chinese lived. The Italian edition has not been translated, and we read
only the first commentary. However, we knew it was extremely important
for rescuing all people. We set out after filling the automobile with
newspapers, and distributed hundreds of the Chinese edition of the
"Nine Commentaries" within two days. Those Chinese looked hesitant and
even a bit afraid, yet they were also curious about the three
westerners who distributed the newspapers. The next day, some already
greeted us, and the atmosphere began to become friendly.
All this happened in the initial stage of my cultivation. I think the
master has given me all this to encourage me and accompany me to take
the initial steps.
There were not many practitioners in Italy, and each of us had to do a
lot of projects. I tried my best, yet I encountered other problems in
the process of cultivation. I felt powerful when I did the three things
along with other practitioners and was elevated quickly at the
beginning, yet everything suddenly became very difficult. In fact I had
been engaging in a bad kind of thought struggle with myself, yet I did
not have the ability to fundamentally remove them. Conflicts began to
appear in my family life and between me and other practitioners. In a
word, I encountered a lot of obstacles. I felt I was not advanced
enough and the evil was finding loopholes in me. I studied the Fa, sent
forth righteous thoughts and told the truth, yet I felt wrong and very
uncomfortable.
The Master says in Zhuan Falun:
"Whenever we can't get through a pass in our practice, or whenever our
qi isn't able to come down, we should check our character for the
cause—'Have I lingered at that level for too long, and now it's time to
improve my character?' When you truly improve your character you'll see
that it comes right down. When you only focus on transforming your gong
and don't focus on changing your character, you know, the problem will
stick around until your character improves, and only then can sweeping
changes happen." (Sixth Talk)
I think the only solution is to study the Fa more and pay attention to
my thought, trying my best to keep righteous thoughts. I began to read
one talk from Zhuan Falun
per day. I got up very early in the morning to practice the exercises
and I did everything possible. I knew if I really tried the best,
Master will certainly help me.
One day I opened "Falun Buddha Fa (Lecture at the First Conference in
North America" I read: "... The main problem is that you haven't taken
spreading the Fa seriously. You have obtained the Fa, but there are
still other people who haven't yet. In fact, let me tell you that no
one in today's human society should be a human being. What's meant by
this? In a rather ancient historical time I had already made
arrangements to teach this Fa. In addition, what's being taught is such
an immense Fa - the Fa of the entire cosmos... Since such an immense Fa
is being taught in human society, think about how remarkably easy it is
to assimilate one person. Let me draw a most simple analogy: If a piece
of sawdust drops into a furnace of molten steel, it will vanish in a
twinkling. It would be effortless for an immense Fa such as ours to
assimilate a person like you, to eliminate your karma, to remove your
improper thoughts, and so forth. Given that the Fa's power is so
mighty, why don't we do it this way? We can't do that in the society of
everyday people, because cultivating that way wouldn't be considered
cultivation. Rather, it would be regarded as re-creation, which would
mean discarding you completely and re-creating another person. So you
have to genuinely cultivate in order for it to be you, yourself. Many
xinxing tests will nonetheless come up during the course of practicing
cultivation, and friction will arise from poor cooperation among
students as they try to handle things properly for Dafa, and so on. All
of these are inevitable - you just don't realize it."
Tears poured from my eyes. I understood at that moment that I was
thinking of myself as an ordinary person, while I came to rescue all
living creatures, in fact. I understood the power of mercy is
limitless, which is given to every firm practitioner. The rest is not
important.
The master has helped me. I felt that I should be firmer. I know I
should cultivate myself in order to more persons can have the
opportunity to learn about Fa and enter into the future.
From that day on, my world has changed. Those bad thoughts were gone,
and everything became easy. The contradictions in my family have been
resolved too. Under some situations, I became more tolerant and
merciful. In the past, it might be a test for me. This is only a little
step on my path of cultivation. Now I gained a new understanding of
being responsible to myself.
I hope that I can treasure what I have realized and understood and do better work in the future.
