PureInsight | October 8, 2001
Greeting to Master! Hello my fellow practitioners!
I am one of the late ones to step forward to validate the Fa, just a year ago. In this one year, I have turned from being just a mere student to a Dafa disciple. I have walked some difficult roads and come to realize Master’s benevolence and the power of Dafa as well as the benefits from fellow practitioners. Thanks to the Master and fellow practitioners, I am so blessed and so fortunate.
I used to have severe tribulations from my immediate family, mainly from my husband. Every time I went out doing something for Dafa, he would try hard to interfere with me either by scolding, fighting, or other means, but it was all in vain. Frequently I kept thinking that Master Li already had taken care of my huge karma and resolved so much for me, so a little bit sufferings should be considered nothing. With my firm belief in Dafa, I was thus able to step forward. At the earlier stage, I might not do it well enough. However, I would reflect upon myself to get rid of my bad hearts, I would behave myself per the standards of Zhen-Shan-Ren (Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance), and I would constantly control my demon nature. Therefore, today I almost have no interference like what used to haunt me. Now I can step forward in a normal and noble way.
In cultivating and passing the test, I sensed the mercy of the Master and I felt ashamed of not doing well. Once I had to be away from home for a few days due to work. During that period of time, besides work, I was together with some other practitioners spreading the Fa, clarifying the truth, studying the Fa and doing exercises, exchanging cultivation experiences, and sending forth righteous thoughts. Thus for a while I had a fulfilled life and was so happy as to forget about all other things. On the night before I departed for home, I called my husband. Telling me that the child got sick and had a fever, my husband started to yell at me and he got so upset that he hung up on me before I could utter any comforting words to him. Then the awful fighting scene of the past popped up in my mind and I felt reluctant to go home. But I sensed that was a wrong idea and tried to diminish the unwillingness of going back home. At that moment, as the other practitioner was listening to an audio tape of Master Li’s lecture at the Swiss Fa Conference, suddenly I heard his kind voice saying “If during cultivation, you can constantly maintain a happy attitude at every moment, then you can surpass any difficulty.” Alas, it dawned on me that it was as if Teacher were using those words to give me a hint. I realized that a tiny thing like being yelled at should not impact me so much. Thus my mind became clearer and my heart was not bearing a heavy burden. And in reality no serious thing happened after I went home. In this way, Master led me step by step to go through every situation. In this process, my mind has been constantly purified with my xinxing elevated more and more. After 6 months of rises and falls, my heart is more at peace, at ease, and open. Basically I am able to handle smoothly and harmoniously any interference, since I take it lightly, as tribulations or sufferings. I have had a positive heart, looking upward and toward the good side of every thing. So I am doing better with respect to my telling the truth of Falun Dafa to my husband.
In so far as I am stepping forward, I should find my own position in Fa-rectification and try to really function as a Dafa disciple. I thought my ability was limited due to my poor English. Besides work, I would talk not much. So except for group activities, I focused my efforts on spreading the Fa to the Chinese community. There were many things that I could do in many ways with the Chinese people. I would demonstrate Falun Gong exercises, hand out Dafa-promoting materials, and display the truth of Dafa. Usually I would carry with me some Dafa handouts to pass on to people I encountered. However, it was hard to tell the Falun Gong truth to a Chinese. It was this feeling that it was hard that blocked my action. I was influenced by this warped notion to as much as give up the chance of saving others. Master said in the recent Canada Falun Dafa Experience Sharing Conference “in this destruction by the evils the Chinese people are being hurt the most” and at the Washington D.C., International Fa Conference that “so more reason we should save the human beings there.” After we moved to Houston, there were so many Chinese people here, and Chinatown is a good place to tell the truth to others. Therefore, while I was between jobs and had some spare time, I drove for an hour and went to all the grocery markets in Chinatown to hand out Dafa materials. I did this dduring the peak 4 – 6 hours of people coming and going at the markets. When handing out materials to passersby, my heart was full of kindness and I was energetic but peaceful. I did not only stand still at the front door of a store but also ran here and there. According to the Master, “our clarifying the truth is saving sentient beings.” So I think that I should not let my laziness, my passiveness, or other human notions block out the opportunity to save sentient beings. If I cause others not to be saved by the Dafa, then my regret is beyond any remedy. Thus I do not want to miss anyone I encounter and I am trying my best to give every person a chance.
During my Fa-spreading activities at the grocery markets, I have seen many different things. Some people had a strong sense of justice and requested me to talk more about Falun Dafa. Then I briefed them about the greatness of Dafa and the tremendous benefits I received. I also thanked them for their moral support. I expressed my wish for them to tell the truth of Falun Gong to more people, which they happily agreed to do. Some others questioned the usefulness of knowing the truth. In them, I saw their being good-hearted but not being positive. So I would encourage them with the following words:
“Your voice of justice is needed to stop the evil’s persecution. Please help tell the truth of Falun Gong to your relatives, friends, and others. The more people who know the truth, the more voices of justice there will be. Then the bad guys will be more scared as they try to cover up the true fact of their wrongdoings.”
After this kind of pep talk, they seemed to see some hope and nodded with a smile. This is an example of the power of Dafa that brings light to life. And so many people accepted the truth materials. Some appeared sort of hesitant and to those I would say the following to persuade them:
“Just something for your reading. How about taking it now. It’s OK if you are busy now but leave it in the car for your leisure reading later.”
In this way many more people accepted our truth-telling handouts.
While doing these things, I was constantly wishing that sentient beings cherish the opportunity Dafa gives to secure your life’s position. Don’t miss this rare opportunity that’s hard to come by. Some people refused to take the handout the first time, but then were willing to accept it on my second encounter with them. Some said no once, twice, but not three times as they came to pick up the material themselves before my third try. There were different situations with different people and some so complex. Sometimes you have to follow your gut feeling and handle it properly. There were various tribulations and tests requiring rationality, wisdom, and compassion to deal with them. There were also some cases of interference that should be taken as opportunities to elevate my xinxing (mind nature). Most times I was doing well while sometimes I did it poorly due to problems in my heart. When I was not so pure, not so compassionate, or had attachments, then that time would fail. Once I peacefully asked a woman if she was interested in receiving Falun Gong information, somehow she got so mad and stared at me without saying anything. My heart was not affected by her strange attitude but I continued to happily hand out the materials to people passing by and glanced at her with smile. After 6 or 7 minutes, this woman just left without creating a scene. Through that I believe, as long as we have a righteous heart, there will be no interference as the demons are scared away by our righteousness.
Through clarifying the truth, we have gained the understanding and support of so many kind-hearted people. Some cheered me up and others said to me that China has hope if there are more people like us. Many others respected our spirit. Some sent their best regards. My heart felt touched by a lady with a small child as she willingly accepted the literature and later she brought me a cold soft drink. Many people expressed that they wanted to learn Falun Gong or try to get a Dafa book. To each I told them how to start. I deeply realize it was the great power of Dafa awaking the sentient beings, so to be saved.
Every time handing out literature that clarifies the truth with my pure and compassionate heart, or explaining the truth of Falun Gong to others, I feel so cheerful and happy. We only do so little, but what our benevolent Master gives to our life is so greatly magnificent. Given to us are many good and beautiful things. Our fellow practitioners in China safeguard the Fa with their lives and those outside of China are non-selfishly doing things for Dafa day and night. I am only doing a little bit in a tiny range, based on a good foundation established by other practitioners in Houston. At any rate, to cherish this opportunity I am going to do better and better. More importantly, from Master’s lecture at Washington D.C., International Fa Conference, “But no matter what you do, you need to be worthy of being called a Dafa disciple.” Let us “Use rationality to validate Fa, use wisdom to clarify the truth, and use benevolence to spread Fa and save people.” Do it right and do it better and better so as not to let down our great and merciful Master.
Thank you all!
