PureInsight | October 15, 2001
In April of this year, Master Li published the new article "The righteous thoughts of a Dafa disciple are powerful." Since then, I feel that I have changed a lot and have struggled out from a narrow self-cultivation to be dissolved in the Fa and become a particle of it in a short time.
Earlier this year, I often saw that different kinds of evil demons were escaping to earth from various spaces in the universe. It was full of evil and demons here. While studying the Fa and doing the exercises, I was often interrupted by them. In each event of spreading the Fa and clarifying the truth, these demons also got together to interfere with us. At that time, I thought that was Master Li telling us the true situation of the universe and did not think that I should kill them. I thought that Master Li did these things in other dimensions and that I did not have this ability. In the meantime, my cultivation reached a dead end. No matter how I cultivated, I felt it was very difficult -- the karma of thought, the tiredness of body, the listless feeling. I even felt frustrated with my inborn quality, thinking it was too low; self and selfishness held me strongly, just like an invisible shapeless rope.
In the middle of April, my mother and I read an experience-sharing article written by a disciple from Mainland China, which helped us very much. Both of us felt that our understanding of Fa rectifying cultivation was too superficial and did not take further responsibility against the destruction of the universe by evil and demons. Then, I no longer limited myself to just watching Falun cleaning them up in the universe as if I were watching movies. Whenever I saw them, I would send out my supernormal abilities to clean them up immediately. It is very helpful -- the more righteous my heart, the more useful my supernormal abilities. Once, some giant demons with lots of heads rushed up to me. I sent out supernormal abilities several times to kill them, but it did not work; then, I made up my mind that even if I lost my Primordial Spirit, I would fight against them to the very end. Then, the Falun flew out from my body and turned all these demons into some black water. Later, I rode on a flying dragon and flew in the universe. I was so happy because this was the first time I truly understood what Master Li said: "One's gong level is just as high as one's xinxing level." (Zhuan Falun)
Eliminating evil and cleaning up demons day after day using different kinds of Fa weapons, using different supernormal abilities alternatively such as electric, light, thunder, fire, etc., I unconsciously became attached to zealotry and tried to find out which Fa weapon was the most powerful and how to utilize different strategies in order to destroy the headquarters of evil. Thus, I was tired every day. After doing the exercises and eliminating the evils, I could hardly stand up, and I felt that it was very painful to cultivate. Once, in order to recover my energy quickly, when I did the sitting exercise, I put a cover around myself so as not to let evil interfere with me. During this period, there was a "Taoist Master" who was created by the demons to trick me. He supposedly lent me the Fa weapon to help eliminate the evil, while actually trying to destroy my Gong.
My father was not satisfied with me at that time. He thought that I was too proud of myself and did not talk to me often.
At this period, other things happened. Our school had arranged a field trip of one week's duration. This trip cost a lot, and we had paid the fee in installments since last year until we had recently finished paying it off. This trip was very important for me because I could leave my home and be with other kids for several days, which had been my wish for many years. But I misunderstood the departure day until one day in May, when the teacher at school told me that we would depart on June 11. I was surprised that it was the same day that my whole family would go to Sweden to spread the Fa and I felt disappointed that I could not go to Sweden.
When I came back home, I told my mom that I could not go to Sweden because it was the same day as the trip. My mom did not say anything, but my whole body was cold and my brain was woozy, distracted. I could not concentrate; I even felt that death was just around the corner for me and that my consciousness might leave my body at any time. After having a rest, when my dad woke me up, my consciousness still had not all come back, and I struggled hard to wake up. My mom said to me, "Is it a coincident that these two things are the same day? One is doing something you really want to do, and the other one is spreading the Fa. Which is more important? Have you ever thought about that?' Then I calmed down.
Yes, Dafa created the universe, give me life. How should I treat Dafa? Wasn't the position of Dafa a fundamental issue? I realized that unconsciously, I had s put myself first and Dafa second for a long time. Although I was also glad to spread the Fa and clarify the truth, I did not think all these things were more important than my life. I just "read" passages from Master's Book, but did not put them into practice. I decided to give up this trip and go to Sweden with my parents.
The teachers at school did not understand my decision. They called and asked my mom to explain. My mom told them to let me decide. They said that if it were because my family went to Sweden and nobody could take care of me, the school would send someone to take care of me for several days. I refused it resolutely and said: "Please do not discuss it any longer. I may not get the refund of the trip fee, but I have already decided to go to Sweden with my family because the issue over there is my belief and my life."
Besides, I found that it was myself that was setting obstacles in my improvement. What was it? It was my level, my universe, my wisdom, my supernormal abilities, and so on. All of these made me emphasize my supernormal abilities and divine power. Instead of using Falun to solve the problem easily, I had tried to figure out which kind of weapon or which supernormal ability to use. Invisibly, I had forgotten that I cultivated from this Dafa, that all of the weapons had come from this Dafa of the universe. Master Li said (Section 6, The mentality of showing off, Zhuan Falun): "Whether it is your supernormal abilities or your Unlocking of Gong, you achieve them through practicing cultivation in Dafa. If you put Dafa in a secondary place and put your supernatural powers in the primary place, or as an enlightened person, you believe that what you understand one way or another is correct, or if you even regard yourself as being great and beyond Dafa, I would say that you have already started to stumble. It would be dangerous, and you would become ever worse. At that time, you would really be in trouble, and your cultivation would end up in vain. If things are not done right, you will stumble and fail in your cultivation."
When the heart is not righteous, evil comes. During that period, "the high level beings" developed by the demons come to visit me continuously and gave me "treasures." Once, it almost killed and almost ruined my gong; I watched my gong going down. I put too much emphasis on my self and my ability and was attached to my self. I did not let go of my self, and that meant turning my back on Master and renouncing Dafa. Master Li said in Teaching the Fa at the 2001 Canada Falun Dafa Cultivation Experience Sharing Conference: "So whichever realm you have cultivated to, the composition of your being at the microscopic level is connected to that realm. When you cultivate to higher levels, you are connected to higher levels and sever the connections to all levels below. That's the relationship." "With the Teacher at the helm, the Fa saves all beings" (Master Li's new article, 'The knowing heart'). I realized that "Cultivation depends on the efforts of the individual, while transforming one's gong is done by the master." If I did not let go of my self, Master's strong force could not disconnect the link between me and the particles at the low level realm. Then I only stayed in my realm, which a narrow, limited realm, which separated me from Dafa. It kept me from dissolving in boundless Dafa and in the gigantic body of Master. I promised silently to Master: 'From now on, I will give up completely the pursuit of my self, dissolve in Fa, and become a tiny Dafa particle! In the meantime, I saw Master Li teaching Fa in a very high sacred hall at different spaces. I saw Master walking slowly around in the extremely large Cosmos. I saw that a very long time ago, Master had gathered all the gods in the universe; the environment was solemn and majestic. Master sat in the clouds in high heaven, and the gods stood up respectfully. Master said: 'Some day, but I cannot tell you which day, evil will destroy the Fa of the universe. Those who would like to go to Earth and rectify Dafa, come here and sign your names on this agreement.'
Most gods, except a few, did not go over there. There was a big table in front of Master, on which there were a big brush pen and silk paper with a stick on each side. The gods who decided to go down to Earth with Master wrote down what they would do during the Fa-rectification period, including the activities of disciples all around the world to send forth righteous thoughts, which was arranged for us by Master a long time ago. The things arranged for each person were different, and the last sentence in the agreement was bigger and in bold characters: "I pledge to honor this agreement and never abandon it.' All the gods who wanted to go down signed. After signing, they knelt besides Master and all of them went down to the earth immediately.
Master still keeps those agreements. The signatures still shine golden. The agreements are effective until the event ends. Beside these agreements stands an hourglass. . The sand is running down as the process of Fa-rectification takes place, and now there is very little sand in the upper glass bulb. Master said before: "I hope that not one disciple falls down." (Master Li's article, "Deter Interference").
The solemn environment and the serious attitude of Master toward these agreements gave me the feeling that if the disciples signing their names on the agreements renounced Dafa or gave up cultivation, they would have a huge sin and bad karma, because it would mean they lied to the lord of the universe, which is very dangerous. Furthermore, if a disciple does not do what he should do according to the agreement, he abandons the agreement, too. There is no place in heaven for him. What I saw is that the xinxing of a person has its manifestation in other dimensions. The higher the xinxing, the more beautiful and varied his world. Conversely, a person with low xinxing has little space, and what little there is, is gray, dark, and desolate, and the water is dark and gray.
I understood my heavenly duty. When I did the exercise or sent righteous thoughts to eliminate evil, I completely let go of my self. I recited silently and with a pure heart: "Fa rectifies the cosmos, and completely eliminates evil."
At this time, fire and light went up toward heaven and they were extremely powerful; the worlds of the gods in different dimensions were shaken. Evil's space wars and demons disintegrated, and then exploded out, not from outside, but from its very center, its microscopic core, which is countless times more powerful. I rushed into the immense celestial body of the universe and shouted loudly: 'Fa, rectify the cosmos, for evil is completely eliminated.' Celestial bodies were shaking. I felt from my heart the extremely powerful force when a particle dissolved in the Fa. Here, there was no tiredness, anxiety, discrimination, logic, or choice, but the huge power of compassion that can dissolve everything, full, unending, continuous.
Translated from:
http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2001/9/2/11545.html
