PureInsight | June 28, 2014
[PureInsight.org] I am a veteran Dafa practitioner and I have been practicing Falun Dafa for more than a decade now. I have also encountered many obstacles to get to where I am today. Without Master’s protection, I wouldn’t have the blissful family life that I have now.
A while ago, I went to my daughter’s family to help look after my granddaughter. I am a short-tempered person and I have trouble living together with people who are slow and lazy.
Both my daughter and my daughter’s husband were lazy people in my opinion. As a result, I kept complaining about them. I complained about their work, their family, the way they treated their daughter, etc. Anyhow, I was not happy at all with my daughter’s family. My daughter started to fight with her husband almost every day due to my complaints. I didn’t treat myself as a Dafa practitioner, and I even pressured my daughter to do whatever I asked her to do. In the end, my daughter didn’t want to talk to me and distanced herself from me. I didn’t want to talk to my daughter just the same. I behaved just like an ordinary person.
One night, I had a dream and Master Li gave me some hints. Many people were climbing up the Mountain Tai. I couldn’t find any way to climb; there were valleys everywhere and I could only watch people climb up. I was simply helpless. After I woke up, I didn’t think too much about it. The next morning, I started to feel uncomfortable in my stomach; I felt as if something was turning around in my stomach. In the afternoon, I vomited all the foods I had eaten in the morning. At night, when my daughter came back from work, my granddaughter told her about my stomach problem. When my daughter asked me about it, I said to her there were probably some problems with the foods (this was a very bad thought).
I didn’t treat myself as a practitioner and I used my human notions to look at what had happened to me. The old forces had simply taken advantage of me. When I laid down that night, my stomach problem got even worse and I had trouble sleeping. I decided to sit up and send forth righteous thoughts. Afterwards, I began to listen to Master Li’s Fa lectures and around 4 a.m. in the early morning, I began to practice the exercises.
It was very tough for me to finish all the exercises. When it was around 6 a.m., I started to send forth righteous thoughts again. After that, I felt I was completely exhausted, and my stomach didn’t seem to get better at all. My stomach problem lasted a couple of days. During those days, I couldn’t even eat any food or drink any water. At the same time, I noticed that my MP5 player was not working. I tried to recharge it but it was still not working. I couldn’t listen to the Fa on my MP5 player now; I had to read the books during the day. I also found that the exercise music installed on my cell phone was not playing and I simply couldn’t find the music folder from my cell phone anymore.
My daughter helped to check on my MP5 and phone and she couldn’t connect my MP5 to her computer. That meant that my MP5 was indeed dead. As for my phone, there was only one TF card left. What was going on? Why did all these strange things happen to me all of a sudden? I was really confused and didn’t know what to do.
One Sunday morning, my daughter asked me to go with her to do some shopping. I tried my best and went with my daughter. Around noon I ate a bowl of noodles and within ten minutes, I vomited all of it. My daughter said to me, “Look, you have been cultivating Falun Dafa for more than 10 years. Master Li says from the very beginning that practitioners’ physical bodies have been purified by the Fa. How can you run into this trouble?” I said to myself, “Yes, how come?” My daughter’s words suddenly awoke me.
Did I treat myself as a practitioner? My daughter and her family lived ordinary people’s lives and they have their own paths to follow. I kept complaining about them on almost everything - on how they would sit idly about and wait for me to serve them despite me being in the state I was in. However, as a matter of fact, all the so-called shortcomings that I was complaining about were facilitated by my own attachments. Master Li has said in Zhuan Falun, “You can’t interfere with other people’s lives, you can’t control their fates, be it your wife’s, your kid’s, your parents’, or your sibling’s. Is that something you decide?”
After I got back home, I knelt before Master Li’s photo and tears began to drop down as I said, “Master, I have not lived up to your expectations. I have made you worry about me; I am sorry.”
I then started to read the Fa seriously, sent forth righteous thoughts, and looked inwards. I immediately found that I had many attachments. I was too much attached to my daughter’s family; I had too much complaints; I didn’t like the way my daughter was rearing her kid; the kid was not showing any respect towards me; she didn’t like to do any house works; she was not paying attention to hygiene; she didn’t know the difference between good and bad, etc… I also found that I had complaints against my husband as well.
So, as a result of using my human notions in dealing with people, I had been taken advantages of by the old forces. I decided to correct myself and I solemnly declared to the old forces, “I am a disciple of Master Li, and a Dafa particle. Even though I have shortcomings in my cultivations, I will amend myself through the Fa - I will absolutely not allow you to persecute me. Remember that Falun Dafa is good; Zhen Shan Ren is good. You must leave my dimensional field as soon as possible; otherwise, I will send forth righteous thoughts to get rid of you. Even though I may not be able to eliminate you right now, Dafa won’t allow you to stay here.”
I started to send forth righteous thoughts to clear my own dimensional field. I would send forth righteous thoughts whenever I had time.
The next day, I went to my daughter’s house and apologized to my daughter’s family for what I had done to them. I said that I was a practitioner of Falun Dafa, and Master Li had asked me to be a good person - to treat everyone with a kind heart. However, I had created many troubles and made my daughter’s family uncomfortable; I was sorry. I had placed too many demands on my daughter’s family and I had not applied the Fa to myself.
During the same night I also apologized to my MP5 player and my cell phone. I said to them that they had been used as vehicles for the Fa - I should not have developed any complaints towards them. I hoped that they would start to work again. I recited one poem titled “Don’t Be Sad” from Hong Yin II, “Calmly reflect on how many attachments you have; as you get rid of human mentality, evil is naturally defeated.”
After that, I began to send forth righteous thoughts. My body almost felt as if it was floating in the air. I then completed the five sets of exercises and suddenly felt as if I was starting to practice Falun Dafa for the first time. I was experiencing the same feelings that I went through when I first began to practice Falun Dafa. In just three days, I was able to drink some water and I was also able to eat some foods. As my Xinxing improved, my dimensional field was clearing as well; everything was being corrected.
Right now I am back at my home. The other day when I got home, I took my MP5 from my bag and turned on the power button. My MP5 showed that it needed recharging. I then recharged my MP5, and after my MP5 was recharged, it worked as if nothing had gone wrong before. The music folder on my cell phone had also reappeared. I was moved so deeply that tears dropped down from my eyes. Thank you Master! Thank you Master! Thank you Master!
Finally I’d like to cite the following poem titled: “Who’s Right, Who’s Wrong” from Hong Yin III to encourage everyone:
As a cultivator
One always looks for one’s own faults
‘Tis the Way to get rid of attachments most efficiently
There’s no way to skip ordeals, big or small
[During a conflict, if you can remember:]
“He’s right,
And I’m wrong,”
What’s to dispute?
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/126703
