PureInsight | March 9, 2008
[PureInsight.org] A few days
ago, with help from Practitioner A, my husband and I began to work in a
new company. During this process we met many problems and our xinxing changed drastically. I'd like to share with everybody.
When I first started, I had quite a few difficult issues. First, the
owner of the company thought highly of my educational background and
ability. She wanted to designate me as the chief supervisor and lay off
Practitioner A's husband. When I learned about it, I felt very sad. On
the one hand, the owner asked me not to tell anybody else about it. But
I was worried that Practitioner A would not understand the situation
and that would cause trouble between us. Because of this I dared not
tell Practitioner A. On the other hand, even though I told the owner of
the relationship between Practitioner A and me, it did not help. That
was because the owner had wanted to lay him off a long time ago.
Besides, what he looked at was achievements, not relationships.
When I was trying to figure out what to do, I suddenly realized that I
was treating the situation like an ordinary person. I began to look at
this issue from the perspective of the Fa. I realized that maybe it was
the old forces attempting to separate practitioners so as to weaken our
force in clarifying the truth. And this I should block. On the other
hand, both A and I are practitioners. We are actually one body. Yet our
boss and A's husband are ordinary persons who should be dominated by us
and be saved by us. It was not right if I was confused and couldn't
tell inside from outside. So I should let go of my own interests and
tell A about this issue.
Then I went to talk to A. After she heard what I said, she was quite
shocked, too. She said, "Well, I will not say anything. I will just see
what will happen next." I couldn't calm down for a very long time and
had a very difficult time figuring out what to do.
Suddenly, I asked myself why I couldn't let go. I began to search
inside myself. Why was it that I couldn't let go? On the surface, I was
afraid to harm fellow practitioners' feelings. Actually, I was afraid
that fellow practitioners would misunderstand me. What I was really
afraid of harming was myself. On the surface, I was afraid that the old
forces would separate us. In fact, what I could not let go of was the
sentimentality between me and other practitioners and the human heart
of depending on other practitioners, as well as the comfortable and
harmonious atmosphere. Whether I would or would not be the chief
supervisor was something I should measure by the Fa. Would there be
anything wrong with it? Since there would be nothing wrong, why
couldn't I face it with a calm, open and dignified mind? After I got to
this point, I slowly calmed down.
At lunch hour I shared the same dining table with A. Just as I opened
my mouth and wanted to say something about work, she smiled, "Just let
go of it. Is there anything that we can't let go? Just follow the
natural path and do what we should do." My face turned red. I felt so
ashamed in the presence of the tolerance of my fellow practitioner,
wondering how come my heart was so small. I said, "Yes. I just realized
that all this should be let go. If it were not for this issue, I
wouldn't know that I still have so many things to which I am still
attached." Suddenly I understood that my path was arranged by Master,
while everyday peoples' paths are arranged by heaven. I became calmer
and calmer.
Later, the owner asked me to come to her office. At that moment I
realized that, as a cultivator, just letting go of my human notions was
not enough. I still had some shortcomings, that is, I still treated
myself as only an ordinary person, not a Dafa practitioner in this
Fa-rectification period. I should put the Fa-rectification in first
place. Since I had already let go of all those attachments, what I
should do right then was to consider how to save sentient beings in a
better way and not let sentient beings misunderstand us. At the same
time, not only should I let go of my attachments, I should also totally
let go of self and sacrifice all of my interests for others.
When I had this thought, I said to the owner, "I heard there is another
position. I was wondering whether you need me to fill that position."
She said, "Well, yes, that position is..." I found that it was exactly
what I needed. So I asked her to let me fill that position. But she
said, "I still hope that you could be the chief supervisor." I smiled
and said, "Boss, I work here not only because I need to make a living.
I also want to help the company get better and better. That's why I
make a great effort to help. If you think the chief supervisor isn't
good enough and has any shortcomings, I can help him. You don't need to
lay him off. As long as we can reach the goal, that is what really
matters."
The owner looked at me quite surprised. I guess maybe she had never met
anyone like me. When she offered me a good position, I was not moved
and influenced by it. Rather, at the same time, I still thought of
others. I kept smiling slightly during our conversation. Usually our
owner was quite bad-tempered. When I first entered her office, she
still treated me in a very cold way. Yet, after we started talking, her
attitude changed within 30 minutes and she began to follow me and be in
a good mood. This was because, when we were having that conversation, I
was thinking of her. In the end, she gave me a salary which was
surprisingly high compared to all the other employees. But, usually,
she was quite mean-spirited. She also gave me an apartment that was
beyond my expectations. I did need that apartment because it was near
the company. This would save my time to study Fa. Also I always wanted
to distribute truth-clarifying materials in that area, but I had only
done it once or twice due to the inconvenience.
Through this event I also understood more concepts. Everything around
us is like a mirror, reflecting our nature and our problems. When I
totally thought of her well-being, a person as mean as she was became
generous. I also understood something about a realm of xinxing,
that is, only letting go can make you have it, but it no longer matters
whether you have it or not. No matter whether I could have it or not, I
felt very blissful from the bottom of my heart. I also understood that
kindness and sincerity could change others. "Truthfulness, Benevolence,
Forbearance" is the answer to all.
The first day I started working there, I found that the chief
supervisor was not A's husband at all. I was quite relieved, thinking
the whole misunderstanding was just to test A and me. Suddenly I was
wondering why I felt so relieved. What human notions do I have that
made me feel so relieved? The heart of treating people differently! The
heart of treating sentient beings in a different way. Do I really
think, in my heart, that A's husband and this chief supervisor are
different in any way? No. They are both be living beings that we should
save. I should completely let go of self and think of others, no matter
who it is.
I noticed that there were already three persons working in the office.
I chatted with them. I could feel that there was still some hostility.
I was quite sad, because I knew that this hostility was due to my bad xinxing.
It was because I had been nervous and worried too much about whether
they would be upset because of me. And I worried they would cause me
trouble if they were upset. I also worried that if I told them the
truth, they would not listen and, as a result, it would bring trouble
to my work and my life. I understood that I should completely let go of
all of these notions, which was actually to let go of self. Wasn't it
my own interests that I really worried about?
I feel that if I can indeed look inside myself all the time, spend more
time studying Fa, the field of the righteous thoughts which I have will
surely be compassionate and harmonious. It must be totally for others.
My words and actions should be at the high standard of thinking of
others. In this way, people around me will be assimilated and changed
by me. Gradually they will become happy and considerate of others as
well. As a result there will be no alarm at all and they will surely
have the opportunity of getting to know the beauty of Dafa.
When I was writing this, two things came to me. One was the
relationship between sending righteous thoughts and studying the Fa. In
the past, I only sent righteous thoughts when I encountered problems. I
always spent more time studying the Fa than sending righteous thoughts.
Studying the Fa cannot replace sending righteous thoughts. This is
because, when we are changing ourselves to assimilate to the Fa, we
need to eliminate the evil around us so as to save sentient beings. Of
course, it is not acceptable to study the Fa less. These days I am
trying to spend all my spare time reciting the Fa and assimilating to
the Fa, as well as sending righteous thoughts every hour. Great changes
are taking place in me. I change completely almost every day.
Translated from:
http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2008/2/23/172952.html
