PureInsight | November 25, 2002
I arrived in Houston on October 18, 2002. For the first two days, I sometimes felt exhausted and drowsy. On the second day, I had back pain. Then I remembered that Teacher had endured a tremendous amount of hardships for us. What is a little back pain if I can help eliminate the evil? Many fellow practitioners and I experienced demonic interference in various forms of physical discomfort. With the impending arrival of the head evil, I was really anxious to overcome the interference so that I could focus on sending forth righteous thoughts.
On the third day, several practitioners and I went to the residential compound of the Chinese Consulate to send forth righteous thoughts. When I first arrived at the compound, it was cloudy and gloomy, but it did not rain. While I was sending forth the righteous thoughts in the second hour, I heard the rumbling of thunder. Then it suddenly started to pour. The first thought that occurred to me was that I shouldn't move and should continue sending forth righteous thoughts. When I heard fellow practitioners beside me putting on raincoats and putting away their belongings, I hesitated, wondering if I should interrupt sending forth righteous thoughts.
I did not have enough time to make up my mind because in a few minutes the rain developed into a heavy rainstorm. Raindrops the size and strength of hail stones beat down on us. I sensed that the rainstorm was abnormal, so I persisted in sending forth righteous thoughts remaining in the double lotus position with my eyes closed. It was only after I finished sending forth righteous thoughts that I learned a kind Swedish practitioner had put his own rain poncho over me and a practitioner from DC had protected my belongings under a plastic cover. I really appreciated their concern for me. But while I was sending forth righteous thoughts, I was completely oblivious to all the things around me.
The thunder shook the sky and the rain fell heavily. Then the thunder roared even louder. The rumblings now sounded like explosions high above us. I could feel the frequent flashings of the lightning even with my eyes closed. The thunder continued to explode above my head, as if it would engulf me at any moment. I persisted in sending forth righteous thoughts until the thunder subsided. I had no idea how long it had been. Perhaps I had been sending forth righteous thoughts for forty to fifty minutes or even one hour. When I concluded sending righteous thoughts, I found my legs were soaked from sitting in a puddle.
Afterwards, I shared experiences with fellow practitioners. I told them that when I asked all the sentient beings inside my body to come out and help rectify the Fa, I felt all the pores of my body opening instantly, and my energy surging out from the pores. A fellow practitioner from Toronto said, "I did not think of asking the sentient beings within me to send forth righteous thoughts, but I remembered to ask Teacher to reinforce my Gong, and all enlightened beings to help send forth righteous thoughts."
During the process, I endured a great deal of pain, especially in my legs. My whole body was so wet and cold that I could not stop trembling. Nonetheless, I persisted in sending forth righteous thoughts. I felt that the ultimate test for me at the moment was being unsure if I had done anything useful or even if I had sent out my Gong when sending forth righteous thoughts. However, this thought helped me persevere: "I cannot see anything with my Celestial Eye. I have nothing to rely on but one word, 'Faith.' Because I have adamantine faith in Falun Dafa, no being of any level can hurt me. Because I have adamantine faith in Falun Dafa, I will most certainly eliminate all the evils in the universe." Toward the end, I felt myself become supremely confident in sending forth righteous thoughts.
Next, five of us from different parts of the world went to the Galleria to clean up the field near the Intercontinental Hotel, where the evil would be staying. The hotel was located close to the Transco Tower, the tallest building in the area. When we first got there, it was only drizzling, but the sky was completely covered with thick, gloomy, gray clouds. One-third of the Transco Tower was completely enveloped in the dark, ghostly clouds. At first, the five of us sent forth righteous thoughts from inside the car. Then I decided to go out into the drizzle because my clothes were dripping and I did not want to ruin the leather seat of the car. I sat down on the wet ground and began to send forth righteous thoughts. About half an hour later, the sun suddenly shone upon me although it was still raining a little. Looking up at the sky, I saw that directly above me, there was a giant hole in the gloomy clouds. Through the hole, I could see the vast blue sky and the sun. Dark, ghostly clouds gathered around the giant hole. In contrast, inside the giant hole, the clouds were white, puffy, and beautiful. The round orange sun shone brightly in the middle of the opening of the blue sky. The sun was so warm and gentle that I could look directly into it without hurting my eyes. Now it was golden sunshine rather than rain that poured down on me. Because I was sitting directly under the giant hole, I could see it very clearly. At that moment, I was so mesmerized and moved by the marvelous scene that I could not send forth righteous thoughts. I was moved beyond words. Everything that Teacher has said had manifested before my eyes in a form that was so genuine and tangible. I felt that my divine side seemed to have reached a new realm.
However, almost immediately, the ghostly clouds began to push toward the center of the hole until the sky was again covered with thick ominous clouds. When the opening in the clouds was finally closed, I realized how crazed the evil could be, and I also learned the cost of developing an attachment to being overly happy. Every moment is an opportunity to eliminate the evil. We should make the best of every minute we have. We can never send forth enough righteous thoughts, no matter how often we do it.
Afterwards, I was in a state in which I had no feeling of weariness or drowsiness, and I encountered very few interfering thoughts. I had nothing in my mind except completing my mission of Fa-rectification. I only wanted to continue sending forth righteous thoughts without any break. My body in this dimension showed some signs of tiredness after sending forth righteous thoughts for an entire day because my body in this dimension is still subject to the rules in the Three Realms. But this kind of weariness did not affect my mind at all. I felt vibrant at heart even when I was physically tired. Also, my tiredness disappeared without a trace after a short rest.
After going through these two memorable experiences of sending forth righteous thoughts and experiencing a very pure, focused state, I began to understand why Teacher chose to endure tribulations for us. Teacher could definitely eliminate all evil within a second, but he chose to endure for us because we are incapable of enduring everything. Because Teacher has endured for us, he has created an environment where we are capable of combating the evil to save sentient beings. Consequently, I don't think we should tolerate any evil interference since Teacher has already endured so much for us. According to the laws of the old universe, all forms of interference, such as leg pain, physical exhaustion, and rainstorms, are meant to bring out our greatness. According to the laws of the new universe, enduring this interference is not at all to bring out our greatness. Instead, it is a shame for a Dafa practitioner to endure any of these interferences, which the evil calls tests. Leg pain does not have to exist if a practitioner rejects it; enduring the pain only encourages the interference. Expecting leg pain after sending forth righteous thoughts for a long period time is not correct if we examine it at a higher level. Such an expectation was the result of my lack of strong righteous faith and righteous thoughts. The expectation invited the evil interference, which affected the purity of my righteous thoughts and cost the precious lives of many sentient beings.
During an experience sharing gathering, a fellow practitioner said, "It would have stopped raining right away if all practitioners' minds were absolutely still when the rain started to fall on us." In my opinion, it might be true. If our righteous faith and righteous thoughts as a whole were strong enough, any form of interference, such as leg pain, physical exhaustion, and rainstorm, would simply cease to exit. Think about it. All lives in the Fa are perfect and forever immortal. When perfect and immortal lives combat the evil, they will never exhaust their infinite energy. Therefore, they will be able to sweep away all evil obstacles.
During my stay in Texas I could feel energy surging and circling within my body as soon as I closed my eyes. It was not until Texas that I had the privilege of experiencing the meaning of "mighty" in "mighty virtue." I discovered that "mighty" is the immensely radiant power of absolute control.
In addition, I found that my tiredness was directly related to my remaining attachments, which manifested themselves very obviously at critical moments. Once I allowed my attachment to surface, I would be overcome with tiredness and leg pain immediately. Furthermore, I found it difficult to recover from physical tiredness arising from my human notions. The attachment-driven exhaustion could quickly dissolve my will to persist in sending forth righteous thoughts. As long as I eliminated my attachment immediately, I would quickly recover from physical exhaustion. After all, the tiredness of my body is the reflection of my human mind. After a full day of sending forth righteous thoughts, I felt a bit numb in the hands and legs, but it was really nothing. I was still able to stay focused and send powerful righteous thoughts.
I feel there is not much time left until the arrival of Fa-rectification in the human world because when we eliminated the evil in Texas, the celestial phenomena were manifested directly in this dimension in the form of weather. The magnificent Buddha Fa has been manifested in the human realm. The path each of us Dafa disciples takes will become a glorious part of history.
I feel my personal understanding grew significantly while in Texas. My understanding may not be totally correct. I hope the lessons I have learned will be of some use to others.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2002/11/6/19158.html
