PureInsight | May 8, 2014
[PureInsight.org] I had trouble getting rid of lust for some time. Every time I failed to control myself, I would feel that my physical body was heavily polluted and I would also experience some kind of mental blow for failing. I would then become very determined to discipline myself. However, very often I would fall into the same trap. The lust demon would quietly creep into my field once again and lust seemed to grow even stronger.
The important thing that I would like to point out was that every time I had failed in controlling lust, I would get hints in my dreams. Many of those hints told me that I was going to be captured by the police. I would like to share two such dreams.
In my first dream, I saw many policemen discussing a certain important case. In their discussions, my name was mentioned. In the end, it was decided that I was the major player in their case and one police officer then said, “Let’s get him.” I was so frightened that I woke up from the dream. I thought that it was Master giving me the hint that I was in a dangerous situation, so I got up and started to send forth righteous thoughts. I also wanted to completely get rid of lust myself.
In my second dream, I saw an evil police officer sitting near me in a big truck which was moving along a steep cliff. I immediately woke from the dream because I sensed imminent danger. I again got up and started to send forth righteous thoughts. I tried very hard to clean up my field wanting to completely get rid of my desires again.
Even though I tried very hard to suppress my desires, I found that lust still lingered around me from time to time. I felt like I remained the same as before. I said to myself a couple of times, “How could such a powerful Dafa not be able to save me? Could it be true that I won’t be able to return to my original home?” We all know what it means for a genuine cultivator if one’s attachment to lust is not overcome in the process of personal cultivation.
One day, it suddenly occurred to me, “Why did I always dream that I was going to be captured by the police every time I failed the lust test? Was that a real hint from Master?” I suddenly realized that it was not a hint from Master; it was actually a hint from the old forces. Only the old forces would use negative hard-handed means to try to threaten me, to persecute me. Master had already mentioned such principles before. Through heavy-handed means, the old forces are able to forcefully control people. It seems that one would not dare to perform the deed anymore, yet deep in one’s heart, the attachment is still there. This is not what the Fa requires of us; this is just the wisdom of the old universe. Only when one tries to improve one’s Xinxing can one start to change oneself. If I accepted the hints from the dreams, wasn’t it true that I was simply following the old forces’ arrangements? We all know that the old forces won’t let us improve ourselves in our cultivation; they have done nothing except create interferences for us in these years. Especially when you accept the old forces’ arrangements, they will keep throwing even more dirty stuff into your various fields to reinforce the negative strength. No wonder it was so tough for me to try to get rid of my attachment to lust.
After that, I began to send forth a very powerful righteous thought, “I want to negate all the old forces’ arrangements for me. All those hints in my dreams were wrong. I want to get rid of all those elements of lust in each and every field of mine. I will clean up every dimension of mine. I want to uproot the very root source of my desires.” Once I had such a powerful righteous thought, once I had negated the old forces’ arrangements, Master started to protect me. In a few days, I began to feel that my attachment to lust was gone completely. I would not even think about it for many days. My desire became very weak. Even though I would sometimes develop a little bit of desire in my mind, I could easily sense it and eliminate it right away quickly. I was not able to do that before.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/127333
