PureInsight | November 29, 2012
[PureInsight.org] When I was clarifying the truth about Falun Dafa to the public, I often came across people who would ask mockingly, “So, when catastrophes happen, we ordinary people will all die, and only you Falun Gong practitioners will survive?” Some other people who didn’t know anything about Falun Gong would yell with hostility, “Ok, we are all going to die, you are going to stay around, so leave us alone!” Also, I heard people complain, “When the sky is falling and the earth is sinking, those who believe in Falun Gong will survive, yet those who don’t will perish. How can that be possible?”
I felt extremely uneasy whenever I had to engage in such conversations with people. I asked myself: why did I happen to hear such words directly or indirectly? There must be some attachments of mine that I need to get rid of. I then realized that I didn’t have a strong compassionate heart towards people. I was simply not kind enough to move and awaken people. Furthermore, I had a gloating mentality buried deep in my heart.
I had always told myself, “Ok, I am saved now that I’ve learned Dafa and become a Dafa practitioner. Human disasters will have nothing to do with me, and I will also surely reach consummation in the future and remain in harmony forever.” For all those who had participated in the persecution of Falun Dafa, I would say to myself, “Yes, you are powerful right now, but you don’t know what’s in store for you later on. Both your body and soul will be eliminated once the time has come for you to pay for your evil deeds.” And for those who didn’t respect me, I would say to myself, “You are just an ordinary person, there is nothing for you to boast about. If you are against Dafa, you will be destined to vanish once the catastrophe arrives.” When I came across people who simply refused to listen to my truth clarification, I would say to myself, “How can you be so stubborn? I’ve clarified so much to you and still you don’t want to accept the truth. You have truly been indoctrinated too deeply by the evil communist party propaganda. Just wait for your own demise!” When a natural disaster happened somewhere, I would say to myself, “You people deserve it. We Dafa practitioners have clarified the truth to you for so long, yet you still choose to remain in the dark. Look, this disaster is just heaven’s plan to get rid of you.” When I read stories of the severe ongoing persecution of Falun Dafa, I would then start to hope earnestly for some natural disasters to transpire so that all those evildoers would be immediately cleaned up.
Further analysis of my gloating mentality revealed many other attachments of mine. First of all, I had become very complacent. I had always thought that I was very lucky to have learned Falun Dafa. Accompanied with the knowledge that the Honorable Master Li had crossed my name off the list of people going to hell, I felt I had complete assurance of eternal life, and that I would return to my own kingdom and rule those sentient beings in my world after the Fa rectification process ended. Even though I may not have shown such complacency on the surface, deep within my consciousness, I was filled it. Other attachments that came out of this gloating mentality included aggressiveness, hatred, and jealousy. The only future way out for those who didn’t seem to agree with me was to die, perish, or completely vanish—body and soul. Such a mentality indicated that I was still far lacking in my compassion towards people and my benevolence was insufficient. How can a higher being gloat over human beings’ sufferings? In Buddhism, it is said that the Buddha will save any predestined people, and the Buddha’s compassion is omnipresent. All sentient beings are within the reach of the Buddha’s care. If we really can’t save a person, it is that particular person’s predestined path and fundamental choice. Whether an individual life is going to stay or not is solely determined by the standards of the Fa. Saving sentient beings is the mission and responsibility of every Dafa practitioner. Only after we have cultivated well ourselves can we save more people. So, this gloating mentality of mine must be completely rooted out.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/113001
