PureInsight | September 23, 2002
By the end of August 1986, due to the pressure of intensive work and study, the cold I had for two years became an allergic asthma. At that time, I was only twenty-two years old. Whenever a relapse came, I felt worse than dying. The only thing I could do to comfort myself was to lie on a pile of quilts at an incline. Night after night I couldn't fall asleep. The medicine I took did not improve my health, but had some side effects. I couldn't be too hungry or too full, I couldn't eat anything cool; and I couldn't be too cold or too hot. I was always wondering why it was like this? Therefore I read many books from Buddhism and Taoism and learned many kinds of Qigong. My illness was gradually alleviated a little bit. I understood that the illness was the retribution of my karma and that we should not perform wrong deeds. I paid attention to my diet. When I was sick, I silently endured it and eased the shortness of breath by performing a sitting meditation. However, this way of eliminating the sickness karma was too slow. I felt that I didn't make any progress.
In August 1992, my mother passed away after four years of lying in bed because of her illness. I was deeply upset. I pledged to find the path which could lead me to Buddhahood, so I could end the hundreds and thousands of kalpas' (jies') worries forever. I would no longer worry about birth, old age, illness and death, and would meet my mother again. However, where could I find the way?
During the time of quiet practice without smoking, drinking wine, or eating meat, I continued to seek for the true teacher and the true Fa. Although there was Buddhist literature, I was still unable to start. I went to the temple, but I couldn't find the master who really knew cultivation. It was also difficult for me to adapt to the ceremony and the way of cultivation in a temple. I thought I might be able to find a master in Tibet and I often discussed going there with my husband.
In early 1996 one of my friends introduced me to Falun Gong. I finished reading the book Zhuan Falun straight through. Then I bought five books - one for each of my friends in Guilin, Shenyang, USA, and Denmark, and one for my father. I went to practice in a garden that was close to my friend's home, but far from my home. Then I learned that there was an assistance center in the park near my home!
At that time, some people who had never seen teacher before, doubted whether teacher would accept them as his students, and whether they could obtain the Fa or not. I never doubted it. I knew my whole life (even more than one lifetime) was devoted to seeking Dafa and a master who really knew cultivation. When I was almost hopeless, I learned that Dafa had already spread in the world, and that I finally wouldn't miss Dafa. How lucky I am!
However, the things I learned before had messed up my body, seriously affecting my practice. In the summer of 1996, I traveled to the Yellow Mountain. One night when I was doing the sitting meditation, my third eye opened. Everything I could see in front of me was as bright as daylight. I misused it using Taoism's cultivation method. Afterwards I deeply regretted what I had done. I asked the assistant what I should do. She told me that this was the biggest taboo. Other mistakes can be made up, but 'no second cultivation way' had to be obeyed absolutely.
What should I do? I read the book Zhuan Falun again and again, but I could not find the way to make it up. When I read, 'I am not saying that you have to learn my Falun Dafa. What I said is a principle. If you want to practice cultivation, you must practice only one cultivation way. Otherwise, you cannot practice cultivation at all.' (Lecture 3, p.102) "Some people have deformed their Falun. Let me tell you that this Falun is worth more than your life. It is a higher life that cannot be ruined at will." (Lecture 6, p.248) I felt like thunder had clapped on my head and my tears came down. I had to give this up. I entrusted my hope to the future. I thought I would have a chance to meet Master, and would ask him in person about this. Later on, I had a fever and was in an comatose situation. My husband thought I was dead and felt extremely sorrowful. After I woke up, I understood that my life was given by Master. It was because I set up the pledge before that my life would be used for cultivation. Teacher had never left me and he was looking after me all the time. All I can do to repay teacher is to make the resolution to achieve Buddhahood and to strive forward diligently.
I restarted my cultivation at the end of March 1999. This time I felt very well! I had completely forgotten what I had learned before. I was no longer controlled by anything. My body had changed tremendously during cultivation practice. The status of eliminating the karma began to appear - vomiting, diarrhea, stool with blood and pus, tearing a lot. After that, my headaches that had lasted many years, cervical vertebra pain, back pain and uterus pain disappeared. My left ear deafness was cured, my wrist could hold heavy items again, I was no longer sensitive to cold or hot, and I could even eat ice cream in the winter. I truly felt the freedom from illness and from worldly worries. There is no medicine in my home. Recently, my husband had a health checkup. He used to have a high level of transaminase, which lasted many years. Now it has disappeared. My daughter is always very healthy. She is 12 years old and 1.66 meters high. All of the indicators for her are normal. Whenever I see the people around me suffering from their illnesses, I always feel sorry for them. At the same time, I deeply felt how benevolent our Master is!
I have told my husband and my daughter that they have to learn how to take care of themselves if I were not around in the future. When their lives are in danger, do not forget to learn Falun Gong. Master Li can save their lives!
In the past two years, I have been arrested and beaten, but I have never had any doubts about Dafa. I was far behind those Dafa disciples who have done many inspiring deeds, but I caught up with the process of Fa-Rectification. Now I have to give up my job in order to persist in my belief. I am very happy to have this opportunity to share my own experience with everybody. 'Falun Dafa is good!'
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