PureInsight | May 27, 2002
The process of Fa-rectification is forging ahead at a tremendous pace. Countless Dafa disciples are trying their best to fulfill the oath of assisting Master in his journey in this world. I, however, still have endless worries and difficulties in taking it a step further. Why is this happening? Am I not clear about the principles of the Fa? Yes, I'm very clear about the meaning of this special historic period to all beings and myself. As a Fa-rectification disciple, what should I be doing? Am I not taking further steps due to my attachment of fear? That doesn't seem to be the only reason. Because they come one after another endlessly, it is absolutely not a normal phenomenon. Do I not have enough compassion? It doesn't seem to be exactly so. I always feel that something blocks my compassion.
I walk on the path of Fa-rectification back and forth, and think about the answer. I know that it is time to change my point of view and way of thinking about my problem. Then, I let go of my attachments and look inside myself.
Seeing through the complicated thoughts in my mind, I find something that hides deeply and is not easily realized. It is extremely microscopic, but it may have an effect on a very large scale. My thoughts and behaviors are controlled by it to a considerable degree. It's the remainder of the old forces that are left in my life — selfishness. My remarks and conduct are controlled by it. For example, clarifying the truth is for my personal consummation, saving the people who are the living beings in the scope of my cosmic system. Sending righteous thoughts is for myself to eliminate the most evil, and to protect myself from the invasion of evil, and so on.
In one word, what a strong selfish mentality it is that protects and keeps me from any accident and loss of what I possess. What a practical substance! I have read some articles about Fa-rectification written by fellow practitioners, and I understand that selfishness is the root of all attachments. Yet, only now, with the Wisdom Eyesight obtained from the Fa, can I clearly see the manifestation of selfishness in myself. I also indeed understand the heavy impact that it brings to the current Fa-rectification.
Because of selfishness, all of our actions in Fa-rectification have a prerequisite. Namely, a guarantee of our own absolute safety. We should not neglect safety, but we shouldn't go to extremes with human methods. Because of selfishness, we might feel satisfied with our achievement and stop advancing further. We thought that we had worked and devoted a lot to Fa-rectification so we could reach consummation and that we did not have to do anything else. We didn't realize that if we didn't get rid of selfishness, how could we meet the standard of the new universe? Because of selfishness, we became impatient with the questions and confusions of all beings. We thought that we had done our part. If he still couldn't understand, that's his own problem. We didn't have true enormous compassion. Because of selfishness, we clarified the truth without a pure heart. We did a lot of work, but couldn't touch people's hearts. We were unable to achieve the effect that we should. We get half the result with twice the effort. Because of selfishness, we cared about personal loss and gain during Fa-rectification, calculated how much I devoted and how much I should gain, and unwittingly manifested the attachments of the show-off mentality and zealotry. Because of selfishness, we couldn't cooperate well with fellow practitioners and we couldn't do Fa-rectification work as a whole body. This enabled evil to take advantage and to slow down the process of Fa-rectification. Meanwhile, we do not deserve the expectations of Master.
Fellow practitioners, let's dig out the root to the attachment of selfishness and eliminate the effect of deviated factors on us. Let's get ourselves free from the fetters of the old forces, rectify the Fa and save people with a pure heart, and indeed melt into the Fa without our own selves.
Translated from
http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2002/5/6/15855.html
