PureInsight | September 13, 2004
[PureInsight.org] Everyone dreams while sleeping. I used to pay no attention to my dreams. But after I began practicing Falun Dafa, I realized that some dreams were actually tests and I had to improve my xinxing to pass them. I wish to share with you what I experienced in my dreams over the past year; beginning with the time I began to practice Falun Dafa. Of course, everyone has a different cultivation state. I am a new practitioner, therefore please point out any shortcomings.
I. Lust Test
Teacher said in Zhuan Falun, "We begin cultivation practice as everyday people. The first step is this test, and everyone will run into it."
I used to have a very strong attachment to lust. At one point in my life, I had been very uninhibited and did whatever I wished to do. As a result, my health deteriorated more and more. I did not pay any attention to this problem until I began to practice Falun Dafa.
The first time when I faced the test of lust in my dream, I remembered that I was a practitioner at a critical moment. Maybe Teacher had emitted powerful energy while giving his lecture and it reminded me I couldn't do certain things. So I was able to wake up from the dream and was able to preserve the essence of my body. But I actually felt a little regretful after I woke up because the woman in my dream was so breathtakingly beautiful. Probably because I didn't pass the test on this single point, the woman returned to my dream two nights later. This time I was able to restrain myself and knew that it was the interference from the lust demon. It seemed that I had passed the test. But did I really pass the test? It was not a simple matter. As I continued my cultivation in the big dye vet of this human world, the dream came back after a while, and I was able to maintain a tranquil heart. At the end, once they realized they couldn't interfere with me, they used their last trump card – my own wife appeared in my dream.
I remember Teacher said in Zhuan Falun, "There is not an issue of eroticism between husband and wife, but there is lust." Although I was dreaming, I knew my wife was sleeping right next to me. So who is this woman? She must be a demon. When I was able to maintain that thought, the lust demon finally gave up interfering with me.
II. Forbearance Test
I used to be very ill-tempered. I was able to change a lot regarding this sentimentality after practicing Falun Dafa. But it seems that my children have stopped fearing me, sensing that I will no longer beat them. I found it difficult when it came to disciplining my children. I just didn't know how to handle this type of situation. I was no longer that strict with them. They began to take advantage of me. My youngest son was the worst.
One night I dreamed that I was hitting my children. I was vicious in my dream and I hit them with a stick without letting up. I was trembling with anger and woke up from the anger that I felt. It made me realize that if I can handle something well when I am awake but find it difficult to control myself in my dreams, it means that I haven't been able to practice genuine forbearance. It also made me re-think of how I should discipline my own children. I remember Teacher has told us before that we should pay attention to educating our children, otherwise as parents we are committing a crime. He also reminded us that we have to pay attention to our methods when it comes to disciplining our own children.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2004/8/8/28514.html
