PureInsight | March 28, 2005
[PureInsight.org] Lately I have wanted to study the Fa more in my spare time, but I have encountered interference almost every time. Either I feel numb all over the body and fall asleep, or I find it difficult to concentrate after only reading less than two pages. Moreover, when I send forth righteous thoughts, I feel very sleepy and can't become clear-minded. I'd like to share my experience on this subject and hope it will serve as a reference for my fellow practitioners.
Looking back at my cultivation practice, although I have done some truth-clarification work, in everyday life I still cannot let go of many everyday person's attachments. For instance, I often experience feelings of loneliness and strong desires of wanting to get married, etc. The Old Forces' dark minions have firmly grasped these attachments of mine and interfered with me, and the situation has lasted for a while. My divine side has long been blocked by my strong attachments, and therefore I haven't been paying enough attention to my cultivation and treasuring the precious opportunity of Fa-rectification enough. My state of cultivation practice has been seriously interfered with.
I realized that the dangerous human thoughts of mine have created an obstacle in my cultivation practice. Only by sending forth strong righteous thoughts and letting go of attachments, can my everyday life and state of cultivation practice return to normal. My wisdom was also enlightened so I was able to see through the surface illusions: the tribulations and tests mentioned above were all tests in my cultivation practice, but I hadn't recognized that and had been unable to let go of my attachments in time. Because of that, I couldn't ascend in my level. In fact, all the sufferings and losses we experience while undergoing tribulations are just a tiny bit of left over karma after our most esteemed Teacher has helped us eliminate most of it. Underneath the process of paying back our sinful karma, our most esteemed Teacher is also helping us handle the complex crisscross network of our karma that we cannot solve on our own at all.
Lately I also saw some practitioners not being clear-minded in sending forth righteous thoughts because of interference. It might be because of their deep-rooted attachments that they don't want to let go of that they are being interfered with. In my humble opinion, no matter how much Dafa work one has done, one cannot reach consummation without letting go of all the attachments. I suggest all the practitioners who cannot maintain a sober mind in sending forth righteous thoughts take time to look for their deep-rooted attachments. We must not allow us become dark minion's target of interference any longer because of our human thoughts that we wouldn't let go of.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2005/3/1/31346.html
