PureInsight | May 7, 2001
I was a surgical nurse in the First Affiliated Hospital of Lanzhou Medical School of Gansu Province before coming to the Washington D.C. area in October 1996. Having practiced Falun Dafa for more than 2 years, my body has undergone great changes. Today, I¡¯d like to take this opportunity to share my experience with all fellow practitioners.
1. To genuinely cultivate Dafa -- the effects of body purification are amazing.
In 1978, when I was in school, I got hepatitis. Thereafter, as it was not completely cured, I was under the curse of diseases for eighteen years. My service hospital as well as several major hospitals in Beijing diagnosed me with chronic active hepatitis C. Although under medical treatment for a long time, my illness was never under control and in 1996, it turned into cirrhosis. The main symptoms were unceasing pain in the liver and spleen, and the pain got worse when I caught a cold, got tired, or turned emotional. In addition, I also suffered from nausea, belly swelling, loss of appetite, sleeplessness, fatigue, and sensitivity to coldness resulting in shivering whenever the weather got cold. All of these symptoms seriously affected my daily life and work. I was hospitalized many times, sometimes for as long as half a year. Although I got the best medicines, only the symptoms were alleviated but my diseases were never under control. In order to get rid of the pain completely, I had tried many methods such as alternative medicines, Qigong, burning incense, praying to Buddha, fortune-telling, burning papers, Chinese medicines, and so on. I borrowed a lot of money to see many famous doctors and specialists. For more than ten years, I took medicine three times a day. While the old diseases were not cured, new diseases developed, such as serious atrophy gastritis, pyelitis, nephritis, low-blood pressure, and so on. My body was extremely weak and my legs would swell and feel heavy so that taking a few steps became difficult, let alone walking up stairs. I couldn¡¯t even pick myself up to go to work anymore. So in 1996, I took sick leave and stayed at home. I knew in my heart that there was no more hope for me to be cured. One day, I asked my physician-in-charge: 'How much time do you think I still have? I want to be mentally prepared and make some arrangements.' He knew he could no longer hide it from me. He sympathized with me and told me sadly: 'I think one year won¡¯t be a problem.' I broke down completely. My life had been bitter and tiring but I cherished life so much even in despair. I hated the fact that God brought me into this world but took me away so soon. I felt extremely sad and wept a lot. I became irritable. My husband was not living with me and I did not have anybody to express my feeling to. So I gave vent to my grievances in front of my father, that was over 80 years old. At home, I often lost my temper and got angry with my child for no reason. Some caring people recommended that I take it easy. How can I? Who can take it easy before death?
July 22nd, 1996 is the day I will never forget. From then on, my fate turned to a different direction. That morning I ran into an old lady who used to live in my neighborhood. Seeing my bad complexion, she suggested that I practice Falun Gong, and told me that she had been free of all diseases since she began her practice. It was just a little light in the dark, but I wanted to give it a try. At six o¡¯clock the next morning, I went to the practice site with my 9-year-old daughter, who had the same illnesses as mine. We learned the exercises and borrowed the book 'Zhuan Falun.' I decided to read the book while at home, trying to find ways to heal my illnesses in it. The first thing I saw was Master Li¡¯s photo and I felt that he looked so kind and so familiar. Since my intention was to cure my illnesses, I began with the topics 'The Issue of Curing Diseases' and 'Hospital Treatment and Qigong Healing' in Lecture Seven. It made me understand the source of illnesses and the reason why my illnesses were not cured. Thinking that the book was a novel and worth reading, I started to read the book from the beginning. When I read the paragraph on page 2: 'I do not talk about healing illnesses here, nor will we heal illnesses. However, as a genuine practitioner, you cannot practice cultivation with an ill body. I shall purify your body. The body purification will be done only to those who come to genuinely study the practice and Dafa. We emphasize one point that if you cannot give up the attachment or that illness, we cannot do anything and will be helpless to you.'
I thought at the moment: 'So I want to be a genuine cultivator.' At the split second this idea flashed, I noticed that the pain in my liver was instantly alleviated. My mouth, which had been dry for a long time, was filled with water. I was attracted by every word Mater Li wrote. I couldn¡¯t put the book down and had forgotten everything about curing my diseases. I read many lectures until one o¡¯clock the next morning. The more I read, the better I felt physically. When I practiced the movements the next day, I felt very well all over my body. All symptoms were gone. I felt like a breeze when I walked. I felt like being pushed when I rode the bicycle. And I didn¡¯t feel tired any more when I walked up stairs. My daughter¡¯s illnesses were gone as well. I could see many Falun spinning when I practiced the exercises and I could sometimes hear sounds like an electric fan or feel my body expanding. Soon after that, when I joined group practice, I experienced a state that was described in the book: 'There is another state in which, as one does the sitting medication, he will find his legs having disappeared, and he cannot remember where they are. He will also feel that his body, arms, and hands have disappeared, except for his head. With further practice, he will find that his head has even disappeared, except for his mind and a little thought that is aware of himself practicing here'--- 'Attachment of Complacency', Lecture Eight, 'Zhuan Falun'
A month after we cultivated Dafa, my daughter and I had an all-around medical examination and it turned out that everything had become normal. Those illnesses that had plagued us for years disappeared in just two days after we cultivated Dafa. What a miracle it was! I was very excited and bought dozens of Master Li¡¯s books, audio tapes, and videotapes. My daughter and I took bus to my brothers and sisters¡¯ homes hundreds of miles away and brought them the books as gifts. I told them our personal experience and helped them to start cultivating. One of my brothers started a practice group in a remote countryside and led many people with predestined relationships to learn Dafa.
After we came to the United States and my husband saw the changes in us, he also became a cultivator. After cultivating the Great Law, not only have all my diseases been cured, but also in 1997, I gave birth to a healthy and lively baby boy. When this news reached my hometown, none of my relatives could believe it. Even now, they still think my child is an adopted one. During my pregnancy, besides working in the restaurant, I continued practicing the Dafa exercises and studying the lectures. I practiced the sitting exercise for 105 minutes every day. The doctor said my baby¡¯s posture was not right and urged me to take pills, exams, and have the problem corrected manually. I did not agree with the doctor. I believed Falun could rectify any incorrect state: While a ordinary baby's head points downward, a practitioner's baby's head remains upward. The doctor could not understand my determination. I told him a Falun Dafa practitioner would not have any problems. It turned out that three days before I gave birth to my son he headed down naturally. No pills, no medical examination, and everything went well. Even the doctor said it¡¯s unbelievable. I practiced the next day after the birth and my body recovered so rapidly that it surprised the doctor. As soon as my son reached 2-month-old, I took him to attend the outdoor group practice. When it snowed or rained, I covered the baby with an umbrella, and he never caught a cold.
2. To genuinely cultivate Dafa, take fame, gain, and affections lightly.
Previously, I took fame to be very important and because of that, I had done a lot of things that I should not have done. For example, when my friends of the same occupation who wanted to get promoted or students in nursing school who were graduating asked me for help, I usually helped them write thesis. It had become natural for me to take small advantages from the hospital where I worked. Because there were no records of the medicines, medical appliances, disinfectants, and etc, many people took them home and so did I. If I could not use them up, I would give them to other people as gifts. At their requests, I often gave my relatives and good friends free medical examinations, using the instruments of the hospital, just for a few words of praise like 'You are really a nice person, you did me a big favor.' which pleased me very much. Because I was able to find a good doctor for people when they asked me for help, and saved them both time and money, more and more people came to me for help and my good reputation spread over my hometown. I felt very pleased hearing that and paid more attention to fame. Sometimes I even thought: 'How nice it would be if I develop supernormal capabilities and can see through human body. In that case, patients from all over the country will come to me for help. I don¡¯t care about money and only want fame. 'I did not know that it violated the characteristic of the universe, Zhen-Shan-Ren (truthfulness, compassion and forbearance). Through learning and practicing Dafa, I changed and can take fame, gain, and affections lightly. Now, if anyone asks me for help, I will go through the routine process, sometimes I would rather pay for it by myself than seeking personal gains at my employer's expense.
In my first month after obtaining Dafa, I encountered three tests regarding money. The first one happened when we were out of money for groceries one morning. I went to my workplace and got 23 yuan reimbursement for my medical bills. When I got home, a stranger who pretended to be from my hometown wanted to borrow 11 yuan from me. I had only 23 yuan, and it was still 10 days away from the next payday. If I gave it to him, I would have to borrow money again. But I thought nothing is accidental for a practitioner, so I gave him 13 yuan and he went away happily. My father blamed me for this and he said, 'How could you give money to a cheater. Even we could hardly make ends meet ourselves.' Yet, I felt happy in my heart, since I passed a test.
The second test happened a few days after that incident. I went to take care of some business. It was a simple matter that other people could have gotten it done easily. Yet it was so difficult for me. The person in charge of it found all kinds of reasons to charge me more than three thousand yuan. I knew they were all excuses, so I tried to explain to him my real difficulties. While speaking, I intentionally played with the Falun insignia attached to the front of my shirt. I thought that if he saw it and asked me about it, I would introduce Falun Dafa to him and tell him the concept of gain and loss so he won¡¯t lose De. However, he did not pay attention nor did he want to compromise. I had no choice but to borrow around to make thirty-some hundred yuan to get the job done. Thirty-some hundred yuan was not a small number; it was almost a year¡¯s salary for me. I was never so magnanimous before. I am now a cultivator. I believe everything is related to my karma. I might have owed him during my previous life and should pay him back. But I felt bad for him at the same time: He might have lost 'De'. All my family got agitated at the news and my brother-in-law said I was such a genuine fool. But I just felt peaceful and was pleased. I even asked them to give up their attachments. I thought I cultivated pretty well and no longer got stirred at material loss.
Of course, we have to go through many tests to truly show where our stage is in our cultivation. The third incident exposed my human attachment. One day I saw a girl about fifteen years old lying unconsciously on the ground in the waiting room of Beijing Train Station. There were many people around her, but nobody was willing to help. I realized that I was a Dafa practitioner and I could not see a person dying without offering a hand. I walked over and pinched her philtrum. That brought her to consciousness right away. I helped clean her face and body and accompanied her to the waiting location. Since she looked like a beggar, I guessed she might not have money to go home. She told me where she came from -- a remote village. I knew it cost thirty-some yuan to get there, but I was reluctant to give her money as I only had forty yuan with me. It would take my daughter and me one and half days to ride back home. If I gave her the money, what would we do if we need money on the way? While I was pondering, I felt a spasm of beats in my heart. I started to question myself: 'Are you a practitioner? A practitioner should always consider others first. Have I accomplished this? Have I liberated myself from fame and material attachment? Why can I not release such a small matter?' My face blushed. It seemed like Master Li was looking at me. I should help people all the way until the end. I took out the money and said to the girl: 'Here is some money, you can buy a ticket and go home.' Unexpectedly, the girl replied, 'I don¡¯t need money, I have a ticket.' Her answer surprised me and I was so ashamed of myself since I couldn¡¯t even match a non-practitioner. No wonder Master Li said all tests are pointed towards one¡¯s Xinxing. This test showed where my Xinxing was. Later, when I studied further, I realized my Xinxing could only be elevated when I took the Great Law by heart.
Since I came to the United States, my living standard has become much better than in China, yet our financial situation has been very tight. With four members in the family, my husband is the main bread-earner. After paying the monthly rent, the rest can barely cover the living expenses. Yet we have become less and less materialistic.
For example, in late 1996, I went to work in a restaurant. The boss, who agreed to let me work as a waitress before the job started, assigned me odd jobs in the kitchen from the beginning. A fellow co-worker told me that nobody wanted to take that dirty and tiresome job and that before me four people quit after just one-day¡¯s trial. The boss was worrying about not being able to find a person for the job when I came in. I thought at the time that as a practitioner, it would be a good opportunity to improve myself on a job nobody else wanted. I did not get mad at the boss who didn¡¯t keep his words; instead I did the work to his satisfaction. On the first payday, I found out my pay was lower than all my co-workers¡¯. The boss said that the first month was training, and I should receive more in the second month. I worked there for over 11 months before I finally quit due to some family issues, and my salary was never raised by a penny, but I had never asked about it. Instead of increasing my salary, the boss kept increasing my workload. He kept me busy all day long, asking me to clean the used oil tank and even to fry rice. Frying rice was a strong cook¡¯s job. Such a high stove, and such a big wok. Two woks each time. A person without enough strength simply can¡¯t do it. Even a young man would feel tired after two times, yet I felt all right doing it a few times a day. My co-workers said I was a fool for working so hard, and the boss smiled in his heart, content with hiring a fool like me. He praised me for having a strong and energetic body. I told him that all this was because of practicing Falun Gong and I loaned him the book and the instruction videotape. So he also started practicing Falun Gong, and told me that he felt pretty good.
Last October, a fellow practitioner asked me if I wanted to be a baby-sitter for one of her friends. I agreed, since I needed to look after my own baby anyway. When they wanted to pay me after a month, I did not take it because I figured out that they were not in good financial shape either, and I only took care of their child twice a week. Whether I get paid or not really doesn¡¯t matter. But they insisted. So I told them to take the money back and wait until the last day. If there is anything they are not satisfied with, don¡¯t pay me and just take it as me helping you out. I took this chance to introduce Falun Dafa to them and let them borrow the books and videotapes. They are also cultivating now. Our neighbors often brought their children to me for babysitting. I have never charged them and I took this as a chance to spread Falun Dafa. Currently, many of them have started cultivating.
Before learning Dafa, I had strong attachment of sentimentality, and wanted to take care of every family member¡¯s business. There wasn¡¯t anything that I would not worry about, such as the relationship between my father and my sisters-in-law, my older brother¡¯s family problems, my younger brother¡¯s marriage, my older sister¡¯s health, my nephew¡¯s going to school, my niece¡¯s job, and even issues about my older brother¡¯s grandson. Whatever happened to them, I felt like an ant walking on a red-hot iron, jumping around, though all that was really unnecessary. My brother-in-law said that I would liberate the whole mankind before I free myself. When I first came to the United States, I did not put my full heart into studying Dafa. I was still strongly attached to my family, spending a lot of time writing letters and making phone calls to check their matters. It cost us over a hundred dollars every month. One day in November 1997, I called my sister to check on my father and learned that he had no place to live at that moment because his daughters-in-law did not want to accommodate him. For this matter, my sister-in-law fought with my brother and even tore Master Li¡¯s picture apart. I cried over the phone and told my sister to take my father to her home to prevent further conflicts and I would pay for his living expenses. Later, I realized that I still had an attachment that I hadn¡¯t put down. My father¡¯s situation was not accidental and this was a test for us. Master Li says: 'In addition, how will you practice cultivation if you do not have worries and troubles? How can you practice cultivation comfortably and restfully? How can there be such a thing? That is what you think from the perspective of ordinary people.' -- 'Upgrading Xinxing', Lecture Four, 'Zhuan Falun'. He also says, 'Cultivation practice must take place in tribulations so that you will be tested whether you can give up and care little about different kinds of human sentimentality and desires. If you are attached to these things, you will not succeed in cultivation. Everything has its karmic relationship. Why can human beings be human? It is because human beings have sentimentality. They just live for such sentimentality. The intimacy, the affection between a man and a woman, love for parents, feelings, friendship, and doing things for friendship are all related to such sentimentality. Whether a person likes to do one thing or not, is happy or unhappy, loves or hates something, and everything of the entire human society comes from such sentimentality. If such sentimentality is not given up, you will not be able to practice cultivation.'-- 'Upgrading Xinxing', Lecture Four, 'Zhuan Falun'.
I warned myself that I had to let go of this affection if I wanted to cultivate, and upgrading myself was the most important thing. A monk in the old times would not recognize his parents once he left home, because he was no longer an ordinary person. 'Today I am a practitioner, why can¡¯t I abandon things belonging to the ordinary people?' I felt very peaceful as soon as I thought of this, and I totally let go of my attachment to my father. Shortly after that, my sister told me that my father was leading a good life, gaining weight, and getting along very well with his daughters-in-law. Now, I don¡¯t make international phone calls or write letters as often, attached less to the sentimentality. Occasionally, I still wrote to my sister-in-law mainly to introduce Dafa to her. Ever since my mother passed away, she had been taking care of us and we all respected her. However, she told us that she did not agree with our cultivation. She also said: 'Don¡¯t always talk about your cultivation every day. You won¡¯t be able to cultivate money out. You suffered so much before and it is time to enjoy your life. Nowadays, if you have money you will be able to do anything but without money you can¡¯t accomplish anything. I hope you can make a lot of money and live a good life in America. I would be happy to see that. Listen to me and it won¡¯t hurt.' After I talked to her several times and gave her many vivid examples to spread Dafa, she has changed her mind and started cultivating.
3. To cultivate genuinely and be compassionate, don¡¯t have conflicts with ordinary people.
Next, I would like to talk about my experience of resolving conflicts with ordinary people. In the workplace, ordinary people compete and fight for personal interest and there are a lot of conflicts among them. Living in such an environment, I also got involved. In 1994, we had a chance to be promoted to the middle level. Since the quota was limited, only people who had papers were qualified. During my past clinical practice, I had obtained some nursing experience and published nine papers in medical journals. The hospital awarded me a 400-yuan bonus and I also had the chance to attend seminars in some famous tourism places. A colleague of mine felt jealous about it. She urged me to treat people with that money but I didn¡¯t pay attention, so she bad-mouthed me in front of my boss saying that all my papers were written during the office hours. My boss then started to have an opinion of me, assigned me to do the work that other people did not want to do and even intentionally created some difficulties for me at work. I couldn¡¯t afford to offend them but hated them in my heart. Sometimes, I found somebody to gave vent to my grievances. Although we worked together everyday and looked friendly, we resented each other in heart. After I studied Falun Dafa, I never felt angry at their behavior. Instead I took that as a chance to improve my Xinxing. I wanted to thank them. So I took a chance to treat them. During the mealtime, I said calmly, 'In all these years you girls have been quite helpful to me. I am really grateful and I don¡¯t really care about getting a raise. Don¡¯t worry if the quota is limited.' They felt bad when they heard this, and felt regret about many things that had happened. Now the conflict that had existed between us for many years had now been resolved. We became good friends. Just like the Master said, the whole situation is changed when we simply take one step back.
In our hospital, there was a young doctor whose husband was a colleague of my husband¡¯s. Both husbands were applying for overseas research and training. Her husband hadn¡¯t been successful and was very worried. Ever since my husband was admitted to study in Beijing for a doctor's degree in 1989, this doctor became jealous. To obtain more information for her own use, she started to steal letters from my husband, which lasted for as long as four years. That created tension between my husband and me since we often lost communication. In October 1992, she was caught red-handed. I was so angry that I wanted revenge. Requesting justice, I sued her in court. The case lasted for two years, but she had relatives in the judiciary department so the case was kept low-key. Then I prepared enough material to expose her in the international Chinese newspaper 'World Journal'. After practicing the Great Law, I completely abolished this idea and even felt regret about what I did. If I had learned the Great Law earlier, I would never have fought with an ordinary person. Later, when I met her, I always initiated the conversation and greeted her warmly. As I changed my attitude, she no longer tried to avoid me. Gradually, our relationship improved.
In October 1997, I started to work in another restaurant. I started to experience trouble the first day I went to work. When I was washing dishes in the sink, a heavy thing suddenly hit my waist. I held my breath and turned to see what happened. Six heavy pots had fallen from the shelf above. At that time, I had been pregnant for almost eight months, but I didn¡¯t have any problem. In my heart, I knew it would have been a serious incident if I was not a practitioner. My boss introduced me to a co-worker at lunchtime, saying that we might communicate easily since he and I were about the same age. Unexpectedly, the co-worker said, 'I think you look older than my aunt.' I didn¡¯t say a word but I felt so bad. He never knew me before and acted so rudely the first time we met. On the second day, the first sentence he spoke to me was: 'You have such a wrinkly face and you look so old. I should call you grandma.' I did not reply but felt very uneasy. I was thinking: 'Look at yourself, you look so ugly. What qualification do you have to laugh at me?' I realized immediately that I was wrong. If I got angry with an ordinary person, I would be an ordinary person myself. I told myself that I needed to tolerate more and more. From then on, he called me Grandma, treated me maliciously, and used new words to hurt me everyday. It went on like this for weeks. Everyday before I went to work, I had to read section 'Upgrading Xinxing' and be mentally prepared for a whole day¡¯s mental attack. I tried my best to tolerate. From the appearance, I did not pay much attention and even forced myself to smile, but I was really afraid to see him. I truly experienced that the humiliation and the embarrassment that a practitioner suffers among ordinary people are not necessarily easier than Han Xin¡¯s crawling between somebody¡¯s two legs. My boss also sensed the tension. While he was on my side, he asked me how I could stand it. I said that I was a practitioner and didn¡¯t mind what he said. My boss wondered what kind of practice could make me tolerate this much, so I let him borrow the book 'Zhuan Falun'. My boss agreed with the ideas in the book and even mentioned to the co-worker one day: 'Don¡¯t hurt people, you are losing your De.' The co-worker only got worse. One night he gave me a ride to my home. He didn¡¯t say a word during the whole trip except when we were about to reach my home: 'I can never understand how your husband could have married an ugly girl like you. He should really have dumped you. The whole market would turn gray when you walk by. If I were him, I would kick you out right away.' When we reached my home, he threw the present I prepared for his daughter on the floor and drove away. I couldn¡¯t stand it anymore. I felt so hurt and cried out loudly in the bathroom. My husband got worried and rushed in. So I told him everything. Yet he spoke calmly, 'Isn¡¯t this an opportunity to raise your Xinxing? Nevertheless, he has been giving you a ride back home everyday. You should not be too particular about trifles. Besides, I never had such an idea. Just don¡¯t worry about what he said.' I thought so, too, when I calmed down. I realized that my Xinxing was not really upgraded in this matter. Master Li says: 'Ren (Forbearance) is the key to improve one's Xinxing. To endure with hatred, grievances or tears is the Ren of an ordinary person who is attached to his misgivings. To bear without any hatred or grievances at all is the Ren of a cultivator.' Why did this thing happen? I looked for problems within myself, and I suddenly found it. It turned out I had a very strong attachment. Since I had been sick for a long time and yet worked so much, I had a wrinkly face. I looked like I was in my fifties although I was still in my thirties. Since I started to cultivate, I kept looking for changes in my appearance, checking everyday whether I became younger and whether my wrinkles reduced. After seeing that some old people underwent a great change, I felt impatient and checked more and more frequently in the mirror. Sometimes I found that my wrinkles even increased. I never realized the fundamental change is the most important thing. We may pursue and work hard to achieve worldly goals, yet this method never applies to extraordinary matters. Master Li probably used this matter to help me get enlightened to it and let go of this attachment. From that day on, I no longer cared about this matter and treated the co-worker more politely. Then I also started to feel that his attitude to me was getting better. On Chinese New Year¡¯s Day, I bought presents for him to show my gratitude. He was happy, too.
4. Spreading the Great Law is a genuine practitioner¡¯s undeniable duty.
Master Li told us in New York the importance of introducing the Great Law to other people. Yes, the Great Law of the Universe is so rare. This cultivation opportunity is a one in a million chance. We have obtained and benefited from it, but there are many good people who have never heard of it. Every genuine practitioner should help to introduce the Great Law to all people. The practitioners in D.C. have tried many methods, and they are all quite effective. I am moved by what they did. I would like to help, but I feel so incapable. So I told myself that I¡¯d just do my best. For example, I have introduced my personal experience to my relatives, my friends, and all the people around me. At the same time, I actively attend group practice. The grounds of the D.C. capital mall are ideal locations for group practice. Every day, there are many visitors. Many people joined to learn the practice and even more people watched. Regardless of wind or rain, since the group started practicing there, we have never missed the weekend outdoor practice. During the long weekends of Christmas and the New Year¡¯s Day, D.C. practitioners scheduled a six-day outdoor practice. It snowed and was so cold. As a test, many of our friends invited us to celebrate the holidays at their home. And my baby son, who never caught a cold for almost a year since his birth, all of a sudden got a high fever of 103 degrees. At the same time, an ulcer appeared in his mouth that affected his food intake. Among issues of friends, the baby, and the practice, we chose the practice. Although my son was 'sick', it seemed like he still supported the practice. He kept crying at home, but fell into sleep as soon as we reached the practice site. He awakened only after we finished practicing. Without any special treatment, his 'sickness' was gone in three days. Though we practiced at 10 degrees below zero, and meditated on the snow, we never felt cold. Every one of us seemed to have a stove in our body. Such a joy can only be experienced and understood by the cultivators of the Great Law.
5. To study the Great Law, cultivate diligently and reach the consummation soon.
Master Li has repeatedly emphasized the importance of the study of the Law. He further pointed out in 'Melting into the Law':' As a Dafa practitioner, what his mind is filled with is all the Great Law, and therefore this person is definitely a genuine practitioner. So, in the matter of learning the law, you should have a sober understanding. Doing more reading and studying the Books is the key to real improvement. To make it clearer, if you read the Great Law, you are actually changing. If you read the Great Law, you are actually going up. Boundless connotations of the Great Law plus a supplementary means, practice of the exercises, will certainly enable you to reach the consummation.'
In order to understand the Law more in depth, I have been hand-copying and reciting the Book in addition to reading it from cover to cover. Of course, a lot of difficulties need to be overcome. For example, when my baby interrupts me in the daytime, I would take care of the baby and do housework at the same time, or hold the baby and listen to Master Li¡¯s lecture tapes at the same time. I resume memorizing 'Zhuan Falun' as soon as he falls asleep. Meanwhile, every afternoon, I always take time to lead my daughter in studying the Great Law. She usually stays up late, but as long as she goes to sleep before 12 o¡¯clock, I would spend an hour hand-copying the Great Law. I get up and practice at 4 o¡¯clock in the morning, so this gives me only four hours of sleep. I may as well feel tired during the day sometimes, so I just take a short nap. Sometimes, I don¡¯t want to waste too much time, and want to wake up in 15 or 20 minutes. Somehow I can wake up at exactly that time, accurate to the minute. Overall speaking, my experience tells me that I can only change myself by studying the Law more and more. Of course, I am still far, far behind those advanced practitioners. In the future, I will make the best use of my time reading, reciting, hand-copying the books of the Great Law, and cultivating with the guidance of the Great Law. I will look inward in all affairs, improve my Xinxing persistently, and strive for attaining consummation soon.
