PureInsight | May 14, 2010
[Pureinsight.org] I’ve discovered that I have many problems, and at the top of the list are my attachments. I know I need to get rid of them, but what is the best way to get rid of them? Let me relate my thoughts on getting rid of my attachment to pursuing comfort.
I have the same regret every day: I think that it will be great if I get up earlier and I’ll have time to do the exercises and study the Fa; or else, if I go to bed later I will be able to memorize the Fa. I think of doing it during the day, but by later in the evening, I feel tired and my determination wavers: “Let me just go to bed and I’ll get up earlier tomorrow to make up for it.” And then I still feel tired in the morning and the cycle repeats itself. I have cheated myself day after day even though I reassure myself. Deep in my mind, I knew I didn’t want to bear even a little bit more hardship.
There is a saying: “Quality is tested over the long run and in the course of time one will see perseverance.” As time progressed, I realized that my cultivation wasn't solid. I didn't have perseverance or willpower. I thought of the saying: “Going forward can be fast and going backwards can also be fast.” I was just like that. In the beginning, I had strength and spirit, but then I didn't have staying power, just like a spent force. I was not living up to what Teacher requires of us in, “The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be.”
How can I change the situation? I feel, first of all, that I need to study the Fa more. The Fa can eradicate one's notions. It is not just a matter saying it. Instead, I need to put it into action, righteous action, to deny my human notions.
I will not ponder any further. I will practice what I preach from now on.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2010/2/26/64564.html
