PureInsight | June 14, 2010
[PureInsight.org] Recently I realized my strong attachment towards another practitioner. Having not seen her for a while, I missed her very much. Whenever she came, I brought out some good food for her and she occasionally brought me some special snacks as well. At those times, I felt very happy, as if being spoiled by a parent. Every time when she left, I was sad and asked her to come back soon. I knew this was not quite right, but I just couldn’t stop doing it.
That practitioner came to visit me again today. When hearing her knocking at the door, I was excited as if I had been waiting for this for a long time. Then I began to talk with her about things I had been waiting to talk about for a long time. While she visited, I continued to work on Dafa projects that needed to be finished. Because of my happiness, the things I was working on had problems. Even after this repeated several times, I still thought it was accidental. In the end, I had to give up the things I was working on and went to another room with her to continue talking.
When we sat down facing each other, I strongly felt a foggy substance floating in our dimension. I was surprised, “The sentimentality in this dimension was already this dense?” However, instead of discussing this with her, I stood up and brought an orange for her. When coming back, I found her already putting on her coat and getting ready to leave. Then I had a feeling of loss.
After this practitioner left, I asked myself why I had this feeling of loss. The reason for practitioners to visit each other is to join together in validating the Fa and saving sentient beings. Once things were done, practitioners should leave. Why did I feel bad about it? Apparently, there were human notions involved in it.
Although that practitioner was several decades older than me, I actually treated her as someone my age and considered her as my best friend. When there were tribulations I could not get over, I tended to think of her and wondered if I could get help from her. Gradually, I relied on her for many things and hoped she could give me guidance.
It is true that when trapped in tribulations, Master may arrange various practitioners to come to help you. But it is the Fa that really resolves these problems. How could I get confused on this matter? In addition to feeling sentimentality, I also admired her, considering her the best practitioner I had ever met. In fact, in this way I had been learning from her instead of from the Fa.
This attachment had been hidden for a long time. From now on I will strictly discipline myself so that I am responsible to both myself and fellow practitioners. Instead of treating her with human notions, I will improve together with her in the Fa.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2010/4/17/65586.html
