PureInsight | June 17, 2018
[PureInsight.org] I live in Montenegro. I started practicing Falun Dafa in February 2016.
Obtaining the Fa
In 2008, I had started reading various spiritual teachings, and in 2013, I suddenly became interested in visiting Asian countries. I wanted to find a master who could guide me in cultivation.
During that period, a friend had introduced me to a spiritual teacher, but it did not feel right to me—after two or three days, I even asked that teacher how far he had gone in his own cultivation.
I felt like I was at a crossroads and did not know where to go, so I stayed with that teacher for two years before finally leaving.
Then at last, as a tourist, I met my pre-destination in Thailand. My hotel room overlooked a mountain, and I could see a Buddha statue from my window. I wanted to visit that place, so I did three days before returning home.
I asked the Buddha statue for help, expressing my wish to break free from all worldly things. I felt unusual calmness as I headed back to the hotel. I felt that a kind of fire had been ignited in my heart.
Upon returning to Montenegro, I contacted a friend in Serbia whom I had met in an earlier quest for spirituality. I shared about my experiences in Thailand. She had already begun cultivating in Falun Dafa and mentioned the book Falun Gong. I asked her for a link to the online book and began reading it straight away.
The next time we talked, she told me about the book Zhuan Falun and brought me a printed version by bus. I could not wait to get home and started reading the book on the street.
It took me nine days to read the book; I carefully absorbed each and every word. I knew that this was definitely it! This book provided me with the answers I longed for.
Practicing Only One Cultivation Way
Although I felt like a practitioner of Falun Dafa from the very start, I still made a huge mistake about three months after I started practicing.
I met a guy who told me about his cultivation. Curious by nature, I listened to him attentively. At that time, I did not know any better—I unknowingly accepted things from this guy’s cultivation way.
Consequences hit me some time later—I ended up smoking marijuana with friends, which made me feel very strange.
density gong column rising up from my body and Falun rotating inside of me and above my head. A web of emotions arose, and I saw beams of light emitting from my heart, which was connected to the universe. I saw a blue light around my neck, and then a piece of grey matter began rising up from my brain. I heard a voice talking to me.
The next day it continued. My head twitched, and I fell down on the floor multiple times. My body was tormented.
On the third day early in the morning, something moving inside my body woke me up. I thought that something had possessed my body, and I felt very fearful. I knew that fear was not good, so I turned to Master Li for help. I called out to Master in my heart and declared to anyone who could hear me, "I'm a Dafa practitioner, and my only master is Master Li Hongzhi."
After a while, the being disappeared from my body. Although I described this episode in only a few sentences, the process I went through was utterly terrifying. Fellow cultivators, please pay attention to following only one way in cultivation. Stick to one discipline! As Master said in “Practicing Only One Cultivation Way” in lecture three of Zhuan Falun, “Therefore, one must focus on only one practice, and even thoughts from other practices should not be mixed in.”
Tests
When I was a little girl, I was once stung by a bee. That was when I found out that I was allergic to its sting.
When I was in my thirties, I was stung again. I thought that I was probably not allergic to it anymore, so I just observed my reactions until eventually I began breathing heavily. My parents urgently rushed me to the hospital, and when I got there, I was barely alive. When I recovered, the doctors advised me to pay special attention to this matter since the next time could be fatal.
That next time was in May 2017—I was in a shopping mall heading for the bank to pay my bills. As I pushed my hair aside with my hand, I felt it; I saw the bee sting my finger and pulled it out. I was not scared. I looked inwards, observing my thoughts, and the first thought I had was, "I am a Falun Dafa practitioner." I remembered Master's words from “Improving Xinxing” in lecture four of Zhuan Falun, "We have said that good or bad comes from a person’s initial thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences."
I stepped off of the escalator and stood in a queue. No one could see what I was going through. I was fighting back the bad thoughts that were arising. One thought suggested that I call my colleagues for help, but I knew that by the time they arrived, I would be dead. I also knew that if I collapsed now, nobody would know the reason, so no doctor would be able to help.
Then I said to myself, "No, I am a practitioner. I will not call anyone." My main consciousness was strong at that moment. Although my finger was painful, and my body was trembling, I kept saying, "I am a practitioner; I am a disciple of Master Li Hongzhi; Zhen Shan Ren is good; the outcome depends on one thought."
At one point, I saw myself as being very tall—different from my image in this dimension. It was a body and image of a Buddha. Because that body was transparent, I could only see a small part of myself—the human part. There was a field around my body about 1.5 meters wide. Outside of this field, I saw that there were all sorts of demons ready to devour me, but none could penetrate my field. I was so big, strong, and solid that they could do nothing. I had passed my test! I did not collapse at all, and even my finger was not swollen much.
Sending Forth Righteous Thoughts
I started to send forth righteous thoughts a year into my cultivation. It definitely cleaned away my thought karma, but I often still had doubts and wondered, “Am I sending forth righteous thoughts the right way? Do I really have the power to eliminate evil beings?
Once when I had such a thought, I suddenly remembered Master's words from “Supernormal Abilities and Gong Potency” in lecture three of Zhuan Falun, "Supernormal abilities are directed by a person’s consciousness. When a person is sleeping, he might not be able to conduct himself properly and with a single dream, by the next morning, he might have turned Heaven and Earth upside down. Now, that wouldn’t be allowed."
I saw that the top of my head was open, and a high-density gong was coming out. It seemed as if my body was nothing but a pipe with human skin as clothing.
All of the things that I have seen in other dimensions are at a very limited level. I used to see things before cultivating in Falun Dafa as well, but I was not aware at the time that I was seeing through my third eye.
Master said in “The Mentality of Showing Off” from lecture six of Zhuan Falun, "Precisely because he does not believe them, he thinks that what he sees is absolute and that there are only these things. It is way off, because this person’s level is just here."
Clarifying the Truth
In the beginning, I missed many opportunities Master gave me. I used all kinds of excuses to not talk to people—e.g. not knowing how to approach people or what to say to them. Sometimes, I even judged a person based on their looks or behavior.
However, after looking inside and finding my attachments, I no longer cared about what was on people’s surfaces. When I talked about Dafa and the persecution, people listened to me carefully. By changing myself inside, the situation around me also changed.
As Master said in What is a Dafa disciple, "When someone is placed before you, there isn’t a choice—you’re wrong if you become selective in terms of saving people. As long as he is someone you run into, you should save him, regardless of his position or social status, or whether he be the president or a beggar. In the eyes of gods, beings are equal. Social status is just a distinction made in human society."
From the very beginning, I have considered cultivation very serious. On my path of cultivation, I should be strict with myself and harbor no excuses. I should raise my standards all the time. Master emphasizes that cultivation is up to us. Each tribulation is tough, but we must learn to look within because the more we do so, the more we will see our various layers of attachments. If we think that we have no attachments or situations about which to look within, then we should ask ourselves whether we are truly cultivating.
Please compassionately point out anything inappropriate.
Thank you, Master!
Thank you, fellow practitioners!
Chinese version: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/239959
