PureInsight | December 11, 2014
[PureInsight.org] I was deeply touched after reading ZhengJian Weekly Issue No. 617. I would like to share my experience to prevent fellow practitioners from making the same mistakes; to encourage fellow practitioners to not be like me - someone who awakens to the seriousness of cultivation only after problems arise.
It happened like this. On May 3rd, I was preparing to go to the market. When I was not far from my village, I was hit by a car coming from the rear. The car ran over my left foot; my shoe ornament was crushed and the cell phone in my hand had been thrown far away. At the time, I was not afraid at all. A family of three got out off the car and hastily inquired, “Where were you hit?” I told them that I practiced Falun Gong and I wouldn’t ask for indemnity. Out of fear of witnesses, they asked if I was going to the market, and subsequently gave me a lift. After getting in the car, I clarified the truth to them and they agreed to use aliases to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. I told them that I wouldn’t behave like this if I hadn’t practiced Falun Gong. They nodded in agreement. After returning home and telling my non-cultivator husband what happened, he too endorsed my behavior.
Afterwards, I looked within and scrutinized what went wrong. The old forces had exploited my loopholes. Master said that we have to deny the old forces’ arrangements. These troubles must have been brought about by my attachment to ease and comfort. The path of cultivation is very narrow; only by striving forward diligently can one make it.
I looked within myself:
1. I did not take Fa study to heart and treated it as a formality. Though I was seemly studying on the surface, I was in fact being interfered by the demon of drowsiness, and would sometimes even drop the Dafa book. When studying the Fa at home, I become slumberous and fall asleep. When sending forth righteous thoughts, my palms are not held erect, and sometimes my body would even topple over. Not only does this waste time, but it also achieves no effect. I know that I was indulging the evil in my dimensional field to interfere with me. I know that this is not right and after writing about it today, I will definitely eradicate it.
2. I had too many human thoughts and was not truly cultivating; I was even attached to raising plants. There were flowers everywhere in the house and I checked on them as long as I had time, which wasted a lot of time. In retrospect, it would have been great if I had spent that time on Fa study.
3. Seeking an attachment to ease and comfort. Instead of doing the exercises, I wanted to sleep. I even used Master’s Fa as an excuse, telling myself that the gong cultivates practitioners, and thus it was ok if I didn’t exercise. In half a year’s time, there was hardly any days where I completed all five exercises in a day.
4. Always looking outwards instead of looking inwards. It resulted in my not being able to pass the trial of family. It didn’t occur to me that I am a cultivator and my family as sentient beings who had the heavenly courage to descend to the human world to be saved. Why couldn’t I think from their perspective?
Master has borne at his maximum capacity in order to give all sentient beings an opportunity to be saved. There is no excuse for us to fail Master, ourselves, and sentient beings. We follow what Master teaches us and do as the Fa requires. Not until I stumbled did I learn to be diligent. I now practice the five exercises every day, and whenever human thoughts manifest, I remind myself that I had studied and should have learned my lesson. Every day I study one lecture of Zhuan Falun, and rectify myself with the Fa.
Please point out anything inappropriate.
In the end, I cite Master’s Fa from Hong Yin Volume II as mutual encouragement.
Be resolute cultivating Dafa, the mind unstirred
Climbing in levels is what’s fundamental
Faced with tests, a person’s true character is revealed
May you Consummate— a Buddha, Dao, or God
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/133822
